Our Lovely Little One - Kyan

Thoughts and Breastfeeding

2011-03-01T23:09:00.003+08:00

Lil princess is turning one month next Monday.

How time flies!

Which also signals the end of my confinement soon.

Wonder if it is actually good or bad. Good in the sense that i can wash my hair daily, use the fan, go out and do some stuffs which are not possible to be done during confinement....and yes i really really miss my bubble tea!!

Can't imagine i haven't tried a single KOI or GONG CHA bubble tea even though i promised myself at least a cup before i went to delivery. No chance.

Bad in the sense that i have to take care of little gal at night in between milk pumping sessions.

Nowadays i try to latch girl as much as i can...I hope to continue latching her till as long as i continue breastfeeding. Not just pumping alone. I regretted not latching Kyan as much when i was breastfeeding him last time.

But could i really do it? As this princess of mine is quite impatient when latching. Once i miss the "window of opportunity" during the latch on tuggle process, she will cry and scream out loud. What do i mean? Simply because she will cry and scream immediately when she fails to latch or suck successfully, and i have to catch hold of the "right" moment to latch her on as fast and as quick and as accurately as i could! *faintz* Once she starts struggling and crying, all else fails. Need to calm her down first and most of the times it doesn't work.
And did i mention she refuses to latch onto my right breast? Yes she has preference only to the left one. I admit I am always stressed during the breastfeeding process, sometimes to the point i would break down and cry when she totally refused to latch and scream and cry or do a tug of war with me. Thats how tired and stressful it gets.

But one thing to thank for is my milk supply. So far, it is going on pretty well. My freezer is getting full and its time i should perhaps start donating or giving the packets away to free up space for the newer ones.

I always have oversupply of fresh stock in my fridge compartment as well so the freezer packets are not touched yet.

Just hope i could breastfeed till at least a year. Not easy, but i will try...just for the sake of this little one. I told myself as long as i am blessed to have the supply, i should continue.

My Labour Story - Part TWO

2011-02-15T14:01:00.025+08:00

Reported to the labour ward at 4.55pm.

The nurse who came to me was so nice and friendly. She even tucked my arm under hers while strolling me to the delivery room. She commented my tummy was so big when i stood on the weighing scale. LOL.

Ok, so i got changed, laid on the bed and the CTG monitor was strapped onto my tummy to monitor the contractions and baby's heartbeat.

The nurse said she has to check whether i was in active labour. A vaginal examination (VE) was done and the answer was out.

3cm dilation already.

The nurse asked me...."u don't feel any pains"? I said...."not really leh...". She was kinda surprised i think. LOL. Anyway with a 3cm dilation, she commented i am in active labour already. However, baby was still quite high up the cervix so the waiting game starts. Dr Woo was called to the hospital.

The nurse said since i have a history of fast labour, this one most probably is too. So the other nurses started to get things ready. As i witnessed the scene of nurses preparing and getting ready the things for my baby's arrival, it started to dawn on me that shucks, i am in labour. So scared! My MIL thought it might be false alarm and even asked Kun when we going back home? He said, i am about to give birth!

At 5.10pm, a pill was inserted for me to clear my bowels. The nurse asked me to hold it out as long as possible. I held out till 5.20pm and rushed to the toilet liao. Cannot tahan le!
Wah, thats when the cramps (or now contractions) started to get a little more intense. It dawned on me that this is the start of labour pains. But i bear with it as i cleared my bowels.

After the process was done, I was strapped to the CTG monitor again. This time round, the nurse said i cannot get out of bed.

I was given the drip (yucks. needles) and had to draw tubes of blood since i am donating my cord blood. Kun was monitoring the contraction chart. The contractions were still quite far apart, about 20mins or so. Nurse checked on dilation again. Still 3cm. I asked for the Pethidine injection on the thigh which hopefully, managed to give me some pain relief as I didn't want an epidural. I decided to ask for the gas mask too, just so it may also help me out.

There was a time when baby's heartbeat dropped to below 100! About 80 or so. The nurse came in and told me to keep inhaling the gas mask so baby has enough oxygen for her heartbeat to go up again. I was a bit afraid when she mentioned about the drop in heartbeat. I decided to be calm and slowly breathed in and out of the oxygen mask as directed. Thank goodness it climbed back up to the required 130 to 140+ range.

At close to 6.30pm, nurse check. This time round, 5cm dilation. Dr Woo came in and burst my waterbag. Wanna cry at that time man!! So painful! I don't recall it being so painful during my first pregnancy. I breathed on the gas mask too hard that i felt absolutely giddy and groggy afterwards. The feeling was quite horrible =(

As the time passes to 7pm+ the contractions just got worse. There was once when Kun was checking the CTG monitor and saw the contraction perked over a 100! I just tell myself to curb the pain by practising the right breathing techniques with the gas mask. Guess it does help. Kun told me i was superb in tolerating the pain with that height of a contraction.

There were a couple of instances i almost gave in to epidural. I wanted to just cry. I thank Kun for motivating me on during a contraction. He said, "If your mum can do it without epidural, so can U". Thank god for his words, i closed my eyes, nodded my head in silent acknowledgement before breathing in the gas mask while i felt the pain starting for the next wave of contraction. I told myself, can save $$ on the epidural. Moreover this will be my last labour and i want to experience what a true labour is.

I must admit, the nurses' words made an impact on me too. When i wanted to cave in to epidural and told the nurse i was scared, she said, "too late already la dear" (since i was already over 5cm dilated) and just said...."Can la, just use the gas mask" WAH, without her "harsh" words, i wouldn't be able to carry on.

7cm dilation. Can i have the epidural please?!?!?!?! I cried in pain. Another nurse said, "ok i check your dilation and see how". 7 cm this time. Said my cervix very thin already, no need and no time for epidural anymore.
After a while, the nurse said she will stretch my cervix. WAH Pain pain!!! Then she said, "Ok can deliver already" as she started to stretch my legs wide in preparation for the pushing.

This time i started to cry real bad and kept saying its so painful. The nurse even told me..."no choice la, labour sure pain de". HAHA. Imagine someone saying that to you when in pain. As i waited for my gynae to come i felt a strong urge to push!! It felt like a major constipation!! The nurse said i had to stop using gas mask already and i was horrified! Can i do without it when pushing?!

Dr Woo popped by quite fast. And i started pushing with all the might i have. The nurse shouted PUSH PUSH! and two nurses helped to push on my tummy. I guess the shouting from the nurse may have freaked the mummy in the other labour ward lol. But i did not scream at all as i knew i had to preserve the energy for pushing and breathing. All i remembered was, there were three very intense waves of contractions where i had to push to get rid of the pain, they stopped thereafter for about a min then hit again where i had to push again 3x. I guess these contractions are meant to assist the baby out of the birth canal. I remembered in the midst of waiting for the next contraction, i felt my baby's head/body was half dangling outside. HAHA, sorry to be gross. Crowning i suppose?

At 7.58pm, little Kaelyn was out after about 9 pushes.

It was a truly traumatic experience, albeit a super worthwhile one. I am glad i didn't have the chance for an epidural. While the nurse cleaned Kaelyn, i can't help but grin from right to left. The satisfaction in my heart was beyond words could ever describe.

Welcome to the big big world little Kaelyn =D

Weight: 2.358kg
Height: 45.5cm

My Labour Story - Part ONE

2011-02-15T13:43:00.008+08:00

I have been asked this question every now and then for the past couple of weeks. When is the baby popping? I started to reply with the same standard answer each time.

ANYTIME.

I was praying and hoping that mei mei will come out as close to EDD as possible (19-Feb-11) but i guess she can't wait to collect ang baos sooner so decided to pop out 12 days early (7-Feb-11). But still a bunny baby as i wished for. I am just thankful she's born healthy though small.

On the afternoon of 7-Feb-11 (Monday) i felt the cramps as usual (in fact the cramps were rather painful a couple of days before that they actually affected my sleep). This time round, I do feel something was not really right though. The feeling was just sorta....different. At 1pm+, i decided to check out whether there was any spotting whatsoever since i fear that i may have some brown discharge or bloody show?

And then.....BINGO.

Brown spots and patches with mucous plug. Is this considered SHOW or a sign of labour i wonder?

I came out of the toilet and informed my MIL. Surprisingly, i was really calm about it. She said i might be in labour. The spotting stopped after that but came back again at 3pm+. Managed to get my gynae, Dr Woo Bit Hwa through an emergency number (since his clinic is not opened on that day - CNY) and he asked me to report to the labour ward.

I was in a fix whether to go immediately or wait till MIL fetched Kyan from the CCC at 3pm. I decided to wait since the cramps are not unbearable.

I then had coconut juice and a bottle of chicken of essence during that time. Waited it out with not much pains.

Kyan reached home and after feeding him milk, MIL and i set off for the hospital at 4.10pm.

Damn cabbies just won't stop cos its the change shift time.
I was basically cursing and swearing under my sleeves. Finally patience worn me out and i called a cab.
No one will actually believe i was in labour cos i looked absolutely fine, and so that probably explains why no cab will bother to stop.

Finally reached Mount Alvernia Hospital at 4.50pm.

Happy Lunar Rabbit Year

2011-02-11T17:26:00.018+08:00

It has been way too long since i update this blog.

A lot of stuffs have happened, like Kyan went to childcare, mei mei's entrance to this world, CCY events, etc.

Kyan went to Sunflower Kiddyhouse (CCC) at Cecil Street on 17Jan. He was on half day in Jan and only started the full day program this month. It was heartbreaking to see him cry during his initial start up period. He came down with a flu and cough the following week and didn't attend lessons for about 2 days. And then the following week saw the CNY celebrations and the holidays where Kyan didn't attend school for a couple of days. Actually the centre manager has feedback to me that Kyan is an adaptable boy and he was already not crying during the start of second week! He even waved hi to the teachers upon entering the centre and i was so proud of him! Due to the long holidays we were afraid he was not able to settle into the routine again, but lucky everything seemed to be going on quite smoothly. The teacher even said that Kyan has learnt to feed himself one bowl of food which i'm rather skeptical since we never witness him doing so at home. But i guess we just have to trust the teachers ya.

Its the rabbit lunar new year 2011~! We had our reunion dinner with in laws (+ kun's uncles + families) at Yan Palace Restaurant. A week before that, we had our reunion dinner with my family at Lai Wah Restaurant.

At home before setting for the reunion dinner on CNY's eve

At Yan Palace Restaurant

There were some changes to house visits this year. We only went to my 大姑's place in the afternoon at about 1pm+. Kyan was surprisingly very well behaved and very happy jumping and playing around. Guess the CCC did play a positive part to a certain extent.

In the cabbie!

At aunt's place

Here i go round & round....swing & swing....

We set off for my 二姨's place and reached there about 4pm+. So happy to see all my relatives there.

Beng pose #1

Beng pose #2

Father & Son both wearing the same ferrari T-shirt

Starting from young (give ang bao)

With my mummy

PEEKABOO!!!!

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR EVERYBODY!!!!

重男轻女...is gender really so important to the older generation?

2010-07-14T08:24:00.002+08:00

If there is one thing that piss me off, its this.

I am just looking for an avenue to vent on.

I am the one bearing the child, so whatever gender i want, so be it. Even i can't decide so what makes U think and insist it is a BOY when my mil has told u otherwise? My mil based it on the Lunar Calender. What facts have u got to base it on? Your own thinking i suppose?

SHEESH. Just don't keep insisting it is a boy OK?

And don't (in front of me for goodness sake) keeps repeating things to kyan such as..."this is for 弟弟 in the future....弟弟 this 弟弟 that" when all of us have corrected him and questioned him umpteen times. He just won't listen. The thing repeats itself....again...again...and again. My ears have succumbed to this comment time and again.

So now, i'm 101% hoping my bb is a girl so he will shut his mouth off.

To him, one kyan (and one boy) isn't enough. Now he wants another boy whereas the rest of us want a girl. Wow greedy isn't it.

To me, boy or girl doesn't matter as long as he's healthy. I know i am guilty that i am bearing the hope this is a girl so he won't be happy, so i don't have to hear his comment any more and see the smile on his face. Even if this is a boy, i'm sure hoping that he won't adopt such thinking as his paternal grandpa in the future.

Please give me the energy to go on....

2010-07-11T17:53:00.007+08:00

Boy just know how to pronounce and recognises "F" two days ago. He will go "AFP" by pursing his lips at the end. Super cute.

And he's learning his grandma by saying AIYA! whenever his grandma saw him pouring all his toys from the cart (by turning the cart upside down....so u see how strong this lil boy is). His own version of AIYA becomes "AILA" and "AHLA". Now he sees a mess of the toys on the floor he will go AHLA himself, when it is his own doing. Don't know want to laugh or cry.

On a side note, been feeling the cramps and spotting every now and then. Each day passed feeling the baby's heartbeat in my tum tum is just like a blessing to me. Days are so hard to get by now. I can recall the similar times when kyan was in my tum tum. Now that he is physically standing in front of me and i see him smile or laugh and his adorable movements/speech, it serves as a motivation for me to hold on, just for him to have a lil baby brother or sister to play with, and to imagine that i have yet another darling to hold on in another 9months time. Seriously, i fear that this day may not come, i fear the day i try and feel my baby's heartbeat only to find that there is none. I am so weak and fearful.

Now joo's accident makes me feel even worse, that pregnancy can ever be so vulnerable. Why is it that we can't be blessed with smooth and successful pregnancies? I hate to think of all these. I remember how frightful it was when i was carrying kyan. Each day, being a question of hope....each day, i just count and count till the day when my pregnancy will be diagnosed as stable. Each day....and yes now i'm facing it again with a heavy and fearful heart. Bless me.

I know i can always try again if i fail. But i really cannot afford to go through another round of MS all over again, now that i have started it. Each day, being a loss of appetite, a feeling of throwing up, cramps, vomitting, giddiness. For a moment i just feel like breaking down. Please give me the energy to go on....Please.

Duck Duck and Pa Pa?

2010-07-04T15:18:00.002+08:00

Lil one is growing up each day...

2010-06-23T22:46:00.004+08:00

Presently at 15months, little darling has achieved great milestones.

He is very adept in walking now...everywhere, to the extent of running. His vocabulary is expanding, as he knows things such as bus, ball, duck, sweetcorn, pear, apple, lorry, fire engine, tiger, alphabets like A, B, C...he also knows how to display the hand action, "no more"...like when we ask him, "where's daddy?" and daddy is not around, he will use his hand and signalled, "no more"..

He pronounces a few words. The most prominent one (and the one which he loves pronouncing) is "BUS". HAHA. He'll go "BA BA" and for duck, he will pronounce it as "DUCK DUCK" super accurately now! Everytime he sees the bus he will definitely go "BA BA!!!!" in an extremely loud manner, even when we are outside. When we ask him, "any bus kyan?" he goes to the window and looks out of it for the bus which may travel along the stretch of road. Sometimes everything he sees also is a bus to him. LOL. He will also pronounce ball as "BA". I guess his pronounciation is still not as right for this yet.

Now he always calls PAPA and looks for PAPA, no more MAMA le =( does he sense a #2 coming? I feel that he is quite distant from me now, as i cannot carry him, cannot take care of him and cannot play with him for long. Its really tiring.

I guess its a good and bad thing. Now that he's closer to papa, his bonding with papa is stronger too, i thank for that.

This lil guy, though clever, is starting to throw really bad tantrums. Everytime he wants something and we took it from him or disallow him to do it, he will cry and start beating and throwing tantrums. Sigh. I feel that it is really hard to teach little ones as they grow up.

GUG lesson

2010-05-18T22:45:00.004+08:00

We brought Kyan to Growing Up Gifted (GUG) for a trial lesson last Sat, but unfortunately it didn't turn out well....

Kyan was the only baby who was on trial...so it seems that all the other babies knew one another except him. This boy hated to lose his freedom in crawling and went about his crawling business (in between ppl) when the teacher was teaching =.=''' He was screaming, flinging his arms and throwing a big tantrum when i refused to let him crawl, and was beating me too.... =____=''' I was in fact struggling with him throughout the whole lesson cos he wanted to move about but i had to tie him to our place. He was also making a fuss when i refused to give him the toys that the teacher had put away.

So all in all, i didn't enjoy the lesson, and so did kun. He did first half and i did the second half. In fact it wasn't even half i guess, we left halfway through the lesson to save us from more embarassment.

So the $50 was wasted. Sigh.

The teacher also didn't seem enthusiastic in wanting to teach either. According to kun, she actually threw the toys to the kids like a person spreading sand across the sea.

So we did not sign up for the scheduled lessons in the end.
Abit disappointed as i expect Kyan to take well to the lesson and totally liking it....oh well...

Something to cheer about though. Kyan has learned to walk many steps now! I was so excited when i witness the scene. Still remember he did his handsfree 3-walk during the housewarming but this time round it is actually a great improvement.

Nowadays, however he decided to take his head out on a temper. He likes to hit himself on the head?! Silly boy!! Wonder where he learn this from? He will keep hitting his head till we had to tie his hands up and said, "No, Kyan u cannot beat your head!" but he will still continue to beat.

He also loves to beat kun and me while he throws a tantrum when we are carrying him! *faintz*

Worried about this aspect of his character. I definitely have to come up with a method of telling him all these is incorrect. He cannot beat his own head nor can he beat his parents.

*double sweat*

This hot lil chilli padi...

2010-05-10T23:30:00.006+08:00

This is Kyan's first successful attempt in pushing his toy wagon...alone =)

Toy Wagon was bought by his mama aka his maternal grandma.

I know that Kyan actually knows how to walk handsfree but has no confidence to do so....usually he will still wan to hold on to things for better support.

Anyway this naughty boy is really super naughty already. Not the normal kind of naughty. Its SUPER naughty and he became an easily flared up lil guy.
He actually fling his arms in a wild like manner and even beat beat his own mummy when he threw tantrums (when i was carrying him). There were a few times when my specs flew off my face cos he hit right at it! Can u realise how violent this lil guy can be???

I'm actually worried about this aspect of his character as he grows up. I am beginning to have a headache and wonder how i could discipline and teach him.

I am actually upset that he does not seem to want mummy/daddy. His world revolves around his grandma. I know that grandma deserves the credit and attention he showered upon her since she takes care of him so well, but mummy just can't help feeling sad about it.

Mummy can't pacify him. So long as he turns into the arms of his grandma, his cries stopped immediately....yes its IMMEDIATELY. Why can't the same happen when mummy is carrying him?

Mummy feels hurt....but what can she do? At least she's thankful that Kyan is not close to a maid afterall.

Housewarming Party at Humble Little House (Part 2)

2010-05-09T23:10:00.012+08:00

Part 2 came a tad late i would say.

But its better late than never. Haaa....

Relatives came over in the evening. About 30 over pax. Received mostly ang baos and vouchers from them. My youngest aunt was so nice to give kyan a disney polo-T. Thanks to all of U!! My aunts/uncles and cousins never failed to cheer me up and support me even till today =)

En En came too! She's a big grown up gal now =) v adorable lil gal =D

Are U looking at me???

HAHA I'm so Happie....Happy....Happie...

Now U see me.....and later U don't...kuakua....

Photo taken with Mamee....

Deep in .....thoughts............

Enen Jie Jie....let me help U ok?

Surprisingly, Kyan was still quite ok that day. He was practically ok with everyone carrying him!

Here's a BIG thanks for all the housewarming pressies!! **Sorry if i left anyone out. I hope i did not!! *cross fingers*

To the 3 aunties who are like godma-s to kyan - Aunt Jo, Dea & Bin + their spouses eric/skye/shawn - thanks for the bike and oshkosh shoes for kyan. For the housewarming pressie...the photo frame was very much unexpected! So qiao its like we had telepathy, i also washed the same photos out that were taken by skye...keke...Cheers to our neverending friendship till the day we die =)
To Hilda and Ruth - I never meet u gals for like ages lor, soooo happy to see u both! And u both really did make an effort to come. I'm very touched really =) Felt so bad i didn't spend much quality time with u all. Hilda, thanks for the lovely hamper for us and kyan =) Gladys too, even though u couldn't make it last min, thanks for the presents! Catch up soon! Luann can't make it too =(
To my wonderful colleagues aka friends - Lovely handmade housewarming card, Robinson gift card + Capital Mall Vouchers. Millie bought two tupperwares for me! I wanted those! Thanks lady! Thanks Stacia and Liang Zheng for the blender! Its put in my mum's place now. Thanks Jeslyn for the WMF pot! WOW! Thanks to Kim for the plant! Hehe.
To my gaming frens, Ah Pork, Helen, Betty, Min Min, Sam, Lala - Thanks for the electric fan! V useful leh. We placed it on our living room bench cos that area no wind...so this comes in handy!!
To Jean and Sandy - Love u babes!!! Thanks for the set of expensive corningware!! Hey meet up more often leh
To my poly frens, Derix, Jocelyn, Stanley, Patricia, Steven - Thanks Joyce for the Loccitane room perfume! Thanks to Patricia for the electric photo frame!
To Derrick, Jimmy - U two guys i have not seen for ages too! So happy to see u both came. And Eena, u did make a trip down as promised! *Hugx*
To Vivi, Shirleen, Kate - Thanks for the Aussino vouchers!! Hey karaoke session next? Missed Maureen and Serene, both couldn't make it =(
To Karen, Jenner, Kee Peng, Ronnie - Thanks for dropping by! Karen's birthday celebration at her place on 29May!
Sharon, Siew Kim, Bee Ting, Siow Yen - Congrats to Siow Yen! And hope to meet up with u gals over dinner v soon!
Ivy, Stanley - So happy to still be keeping in touch with them, our honeymoon frens =) Thanks for the Robinson gift card.

Ok covered mostly abt everybody. I really hope i never miss anyone out!
I think most of them won't see this list la, cos i didn't tell many ppl abt this blog. But i still wanna post to keep these in memory =)

And how could i forgot the tons of ang baos, gift cards and vouchers i receive??? Thanks all!! I think i have at least 5 Robinson cards and gift vouchers now...LOL.

and FINALLY...

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL THE MUMMIES OUT THERE IN THIS WORLD, ESPECIALLY TO MY OWN MUM!!
HAPPY 32nd BIRTHDAY TO THE SPECIAL MAN IN MY LIFE =)

Housewarming Party at Humble Little House (Part 1)

2010-05-04T22:52:00.014+08:00

My invitation message on facebook...
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Hey Guys!

The three lil masters of the house would like to invite all of u to come celebrate the wonderful occasion and birth of our humble new home.

For this "open house" housewarming celebration, there will be food, drinks and company that u will enjoy...

Date: Sat, 1st May (Labour Day)
Address: Blk 1A, Cantonment Road, #31-11, S(085101)
Time: 12pm to 3pm (Friends/Colleagues)
5.30pm onwards (Relatives)
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Nowadays we are so closely "webbed" that by touch of simple buttons and fingers exercise, i manage to get my invitation contacts under one roof, all thanks to facebook. However coordination wasn't as easy as invitation. I had to sms reminders to those peeps who didn't reply me coming near the deadline.

Many thanks to all my friends and relatives who turned up that day. In fact turn up rate wasn't bad. Most actually gave me face and came on that day. Haha. Just a couple of them who couldn't turn up at the last minute.

Courtesy of photos to Eric! Didn't know he call himself..."小良"...keke...
Anyway these are wonderful pixs!

The SkyGarden on the 50th Floor

Don't the blue looks like a swimming pool?! (not though :P) Fabulous!

They have these metallic benches for rest& relax

And some pics which i stole from Eereena on fb :P Her bf took these pics on his pro cam too!

Taken from the 50th Floor

The other type of seats available on the skygarden. I call them "hard rock sofa seats"

This running track is taken on the 26th floor.

I felt so stupid. I actually didn't take photos with all my guests cos i was so bz, except this one photo which Eena's bf offered to take for us >.< SIGH!!!
I probably should have engage one photographer to do that. Silly of moi!!

Ok part two coming up next. The evening session with relatives.
Feeling really sleepy now. I shall head to bed now.
Ciaoz.

New thoughts, New home

2010-04-19T23:14:00.004+08:00

It seems that coming online doesn't just revolve around blogging...there are tons of things to do...

Mummy has been rather addicted to online shopping its getting seriously dangerous =___='''

Having stayed at the new place for about two weeks+ already, aren't we all glad that kyan is adapting quite well to the new place, he is very much his usual self crawling round the house, screaming, shouting and going by his usual activities, albeit a smaller place than sengkang of course. But definitely much more cosier and easier, cos we have lesser housework to do! (since its a smaller house :P)

Lil boy just turned like 13months two days ago. Mummy doesn't keep track of the months as much as she had done so before boy had turned one year old. She is guilty of that. But she is sure boy is growing well and a big and cheerful boy now.

He definitely has his own set of tantrums and character that is seemingly more obvious each day =)

He has learned many words now. He knows what is the fan, the tiger, the light, the phone just to name a few. He knows who is Nai Nai, Ye Ye, Daddy, Mummy, Ma Ma (maternal grandma), Wai Gong, Jiu Jiu, Yee Yee.

And recently his favourite action is to keep shaking the head in a "YES" manner. Mummy is so scared he shakes it too hard that he will knock his head against the floor if he was in a crawling position.

His active climbing and standing means more accidents occuring every now and then. Yea, this fiesty boy sure is taking every chance to exercise his muscles to the fullest =) And oh, how i could forget that lil boy loves to throw EVERYTHING outta his playpen everytime? Daddy or one of us will usually told him firmly..."no u cannot do that, if u do that u are not getting the things back" but apparently this lil boy does not listen *insert a SIGH*

He loves to bite on his soft toys in the play pen. A few times when i shouted across to him..."KYAN! Cannot!" He will stand up in his playpen and hand the toy to me over the edge but if i don't take from him immediately after, he throws it outta the playpen (which usually happens). This boy will tip toe and sees the thrown out toy as his hands are held over the edge. He will then call out to me and points at the toy. Sometimes you don't know whether to laugh or cry.

Meals wise, his routine is now changed. Sometimes, he only has four meals instead of the usual five if he takes long nap in between. He will have Mamil Gold mixed with cereals and Pediasure as a standalone milk feed.

Just another two weeks time, there will be a housewarming where he will have plenty of jiejies, gorgors, didis and meimeis to play with that he could probably form a small mini playgroup.

That will be great =)

Happy Birthday, my grown up Boy!

2010-03-18T14:25:00.001+08:00

I read that there are 3 sections of baby development. Taken from a reowned PD from his book, Positive Parenting - Raising Healthy Children from Birth to Three Years:

Physical (Motor)
Emotional (Social)
Mental (Intelligence)

Kyan has developed in three areas, but i would say he is still quite slow in learning how to chew. On the other hand, he is pretty adept in moving fast around the house and especially in his playpen, moving fast from one place to another.

Sometimes he can stand without support in his playpen for more than 10 seconds. He could walk and roll effortlessly in his playpen though he is still learning to walk on the hard floor.

He's crawling quite enthusiastically around the house despite the hard floor, thanks to my mum who let him did that. I thought it was a good move. He can even bend his body to see where the ball he threw has rolled into (underneath the gap below the drawers). There was once he bent too low till he hit his head against the floor and cried badly.

He has eight teeth in total, and i think there's another one coming out from behind. He loves to suck his thumb and fingers now it is a tedious task to stop him every now and then.

Changing his pampers is another headache. He hates to be changed and cries to get up. If you pin his hands down he will look and shout "HEY!" (in his baby language) at U..at the same time making noises and giving U the expression that, "HEY what are u doing?! Let go!" When u look at his expression, u don't know to laugh or to cry. Haha.

Its really a joy to see him grow up day by day, yet so ironic i wish he will still remain my precious baby forever, though i know one day it will be a fact that he will grow up and be on his way to boy and manhood. He is an individual who is learning to express his feelings, thoughts and emotions day by day.

As of 17Mar (yesterday), i hereby wish my precious boy a Happy First Birthday!!

Welcome to the next stage of your life. You have reach toddlerhood. Mummy wish for you to grow up a sensible, healthy and smart boy. You don't have to be perfect, but it is important you grow up to be a person with a true sense of well-being, being taught and preached the right virtues which i hope in future, will stay with you throughout your entire life.

One Year Advance Celebration

2010-03-15T23:37:00.013+08:00

Seriously don't have the time to blog these days...SIGH.

The renovation has been completed on 12Mar. Now its just the packing, shifting and moving time. I guess this will just stretch all the way till end of Mar. Lucky we did not hold Kyan's birthday celebration at the new place, as of right now its a mess in there. We held it yesterday at Yong Chun Yuan Restaurant with just kyan's grandparents, aunts, uncle and of course Kun and me. It was a simple celebration. The usual heartwarming session of singing a birthday song, clapping with joy, blowing out the one and only candle, photo taking and cutting the cake. Kyan was rather well behaved and joyful since he was surrounded by the people he knew so well.

I thought the cake looked rather cute, which we ordered from Four Leaves at Sengkang, though i would definitely agree it will taste better if it was ranked on a sweet scale down.

In the morning, we let kyan choose from a plate of stuffs just for fun. Well the first thing he picked up was the red EGG! haha~which doesn't symbolise for anything. Next is the pen and his second choice was the scissors.

*Snap* Family Photos at the restaurant. Specially love the second pix.

Our poor boy was still running a flu despite it being nearly a week already =( Just look at how much weight he has lost. Mummy too was sick, her throat finally went hoarse today.

Thanks to the grandparents for the ang baos, and the gift toys from ah yi and koo ma...!

Lunar New Year + Valentine's Day

2010-02-16T12:06:00.010+08:00

Chinese New Year happens to fall on Valentine's Day this year...and it is Kyan's first LNY celebration as well!

We had the reunion dinner at a coffeeshop at Tampines. I made a fuss in the midst of the dinner (as expected) and was crying and Daddy, Nai Nai and Mum had to take turns to carry me and walk about at the path outside, hoping i can fall asleep but unfortunately there wasn't much success.

Mummy bought this green (which happens to be my lucky color) polo-T for me from Fox Baby. Nai nai bought the jeans....Nice?

Daddy and Mummy wore the same shirt. Daddy bought the shirts!

I was out the whole day on the first day of CNY. Was pretty cranky during the feeding at Great Grandma's place and gotta have 4 persons entertaining and serving me (including the maid who had to perform tricks *faintz*). ..Surprisingly over at Grand aunt's place i still was laughing and playing with people. Sleep was interrupted and i had to sleep at broken intervals. It wasn't good being out the whole day at all.

Check out my new slant....

I love to put my fingers into my mouth...

I'm trying to act cool...Don't ever piss me off...

Family Photo of the Year

2010-02-06T00:44:00.002+08:00

Jo emailed and asked me to submit this photo to motherhood contest for the LookALike contest....kyan with daddy of course!

Hope it wins!
No high hopes for it though...HA.

And here's another...where is Mister Kyan looking at?

Growing up each day...

2010-02-04T14:48:00.008+08:00

Third tooth on the bottom has popped up. Cute ain't? When he smiles, these teeth become visibly obvious.

Little boy does have his favourite words now. He always calls mamamama....don't know whether he's calling out for me anot....and um um um...and ja ja ja ja ja....just yesterday i thought i heard him call daddy or papa! He is becoming smarter each day, with new stunts and tricks. He does like to "place" his little finger into my lips too. I think it is pretty cute. He's beginning to recognise things too. Yesterday his nai nai asked him where the banana is and he turned his head to the banana!

He is like a worm, can't sit still. Carrying him is like having a wrestle match with him. Takes a lot of energy u know.

He can stand up and walk forward now (though still got "crab-walking") but hey its a new style of walking already.

Meals wise, he just tried french beans and plums. Strawberries too. There were some red patches around his eyes which occurred within a few days of testing with the new foods and i wasn't sure it was due to the beans anot, or due to his rubbing of the eyes with his bolster. But no more allergic reactions were spotted the next day so i didn't see it as a source of concern.

Lil boy just recovered from flu and cough after we brought him to see Dr Anthony Chee (PD) at Hougang last Wed 27Jan (Clinic: Anthony Baby and Child Clinic). Charge wise is a bit steep (first time consultation is $70!). He is quite similiar to Dr Teoh in terms of thinking and also have many years of experience. I asked him whether it is ok if he doesn't meet the required daily milk intake (480ml to 500ml) a day since kyan still adopts a "I hate U" attitude towards milk. Sighz. Dr Anthony says that it is ok if he doesn't drink milk as long as he eats, as eating foods is more important than milk. It is just that us Asians have been generally influenced by Westerners thinking, as westerners believed that milk is still v important and a required level has to be reached daily. Since Dr Teoh and Dr Anthony are both experienced PDs, i am now more assured after hearing this sentence being emphasised a second time (milk is not so important as compared to solids) that I have begin to take a stride backwards towards his daily milk intake.

And his feet is v long! Now two new pairs of shoes can't be worn already, and he haven't even wore it once! Duhz! These two pairs were gifts from friends...one is adidas somemore! sighz...my mil says lil prince is small in size but has big feet! Thats why he's picking up walking fast...LOL

Total refusal of bottle feeding + Milk

2010-01-26T23:49:00.003+08:00

Kyan's appetite for milk has plunged down to its worst again.

All of us are feeling hopeless. Its back to cries and struggles of refusing to be fed...even spoon feeding seems to be a really difficult task now. Milk is just one of the problem. He is not enthusiastic about solids either. Have to entertain and play with him in an attempt to try feeding him. One person is tough. It takes two or more to feed him. He totally refused bottle already.

I see another two bottom teeth forcing their way through the gums. These two must be the culprits. On saturday night, he woke up at a freaking one hour interval causing his mummy and daddy to do the same...

We are feeling helpless and stressed. Heeeelllllppp!

Mummy is suffering from eyebags...terrible ugly eyebags...sobz.

The typical scenes...

2010-01-26T23:20:00.000+08:00

Chinese New Year (Tiger year) is approaching very soon too and this will be the first year Kyan undertakes a new job. He will help collect ang baos so his parents can at least recoup some losses from the massive economic crisis which always hits when CNY comes.

HAHA.

Being a big boy now, he is more interactive and displays his emotions more readily, albeit still naughty of course.

There are a couple of times when you don't know how amazing and smart kids can be.

Episode1

Little prince loves to throw things onto the floor, perhaps getting the kick of seeing people bending down on their fours to pick them up. He tests our limits to see how long this can go on, as he continues with this action. Finally we got put off and decide to keep the toy away. Little prince will look at us and realises its not fun anymore, and eventually he leaves the scene in his walker.

Episode2

Little prince throws a toy down while the we feed him food or milk as he is seated in his walker. After picking it up, he throws another toy down....and another....and another....sometimes to the point he starts sweeping everything off his walker top. So we decided not to put any toys in front of him. Little prince then sees a box containing the rest of the toys on the table next to him and decide to pull the whole box towards him. If we never "save" the box on time it will topple onto the floor.

Episode3
Fed him milk and food while he's in his walker. Eventually he jumps up and down his seat throwing a tantrum when he realises his patience waning.

Episode4

Little prince can say "Um", "M" and "Maaaaaaa" now. He loves to go to the kitchen and see the lighted stove fire. When he wants biscuits which are placed on the kitchen surface, he goes "erm""erm" in a forceful attempt to ask whoever is carrying him to go towards that direction. When he wants to go out, he knows where the keys are and want to take them himself or else want someone to take the keys for him.

Boy boy will turn one year old this year! Very fast he'll be walking, running and hopping around!

Daddy and Mummy are busy with the house renovation. Very soon i'll have a new house to stay and i have my own room! *Happy*

Celebrations to welcome 2010

2010-01-26T23:09:00.014+08:00

Some postdated photos of the CNY celebration. Location: TCC at Plaza Sing. Date: 2Jan10. Just a humble meetup with my bffs, their other 1/2 (exception of shawn) and their kiddos..plus kyan's buddies, stephy and nigel.

This is actually one of my favourite pixs. Don't Nigel and Kyan look like they are in some serious discussion? Subject of negotiation: nigel's toy

My little prince is not giving up in asking nigel to lend him the toy...but nigel apparently is more willing to lend the toy to his gf instead :P

Kyan is finally thinking he won't ever borrow the toy and decides to stare at others instead, thinking..."what should i do now?"

Looking fierce *roar*

Look at all the nice food on the table~!

The next day was nai nai's birthday celebration at Chinatown "Yan Ge" restaurant...

Cousins lookalike?

I could stand up...HIGH...high....HIGH

2009-12-29T22:07:00.009+08:00

Another milestone.

Kyan managed to pull himself up and stand up a very long time now with support, clinging onto the edge of the playpen. He could also walked for a short distance with that support. Well done boy.

He got four grown out teeth on the top, two at the middle bottom. The tooth by the edge is starting to pop up too.

I gave him a biscuit to chew on Sunday. His expression was so cute after biting off a part of the biscuit. He would start smiling very happily as though a goal was achieved. I would compliment and say....oh so clever boy!

Soon he'll be one year old. Very fast. Sometimes i just feel its so scary to have time flying past just like that. Memories really have to be captured if not, all is lost forever.

First Merry x'Mas!

2009-12-25T21:32:00.002+08:00

Wishing U the very first merry x'mas Mister Kyan! Hehe...

We spent the day at my 4th aunt's place (as usual every x'mas day)...had a hella great time at the bowling centre@Chevrons. However, i had to feed Kyan there so i missed out on the first game. He didn't want to drink milk and i was struggling to feed him there alone. Even the receptionist at the counter also can see. Kyan was enticed to the decorated christmas tree just beside the counter, and kept wanting to go there. I think he really loves the lights. Too bad Orchard Road would be very crowded and it was not advisable to bring him there.

On the second game, i threw the role of babysitting to my sister since she doesn't want to play bowling. Haha. Thank goodness to the Ergo carrier that lil prince eventually managed to fall asleep in the carrier.

Aunty Peiting carrying lil prince

But this ah yi seems a lil scared..

However eventually she took a photo with her bf (aka future hubby) and lil kyan *click* happy family photo =D

Sisters Unite!

Grandma and Mummy

Check out my bib...

Little yellow bunny riding hood

Whats so interesting up there??

My grandaunt carrying me....i'm a doctor don't play play! (a sian one that is)

Mummy's team won the bowling competition!
Kyan was still manageable at the bowling centre, just that when we reached my aunt's place, he created problems again.
Don't want to eat, cannot sleep, make a fuss and cry.

Argh. Babies.
Stress. Everyone says my face displays so.
Yes i can't admit i'm not. Being a mum is really not easy.

Moomoomoo gone....frustration with milk bottes

2009-12-20T21:57:00.006+08:00

I know i am saying it for the second time but this time is real...

Today marks the end of my moo-moo career.

Yes totally. STOPPED. No more days of pumping, no more waking up earlier to pump, no more washing of pump, no more lugging the heavy FTG bag to and fro...basically no more.

Kyan will be on full FM from now. The first time i said it, i still continued as kyan had feeding problems and Dr Teoh advised me not to quit.

This time, i was determined to give up as i realised maybe it just wasn't worth the effort given the fact that kyan doesn't seem to appreciate milk (even though this problem started way before) and he is on three solid meals now, so other forms of food would have compensated for his nutritional needs. Besides i could think i need more time for other things which would require my attention. House renovation, spending more time with kyan and taking care of him besides pumping and a load of other things...

Nine months along the breastfeeding route seems not too long, yet not too short either. However, given my target was eight months, this would seem an achieved goal.

Kyan is totally refusing bottles! We have to feed the whole bottle of 190ml milk by SPOON...

Whats wrong? Sighz.

So u see, other things requiring more attention than just pumping alone.
And....guilty so to speak, i'm enjoying the convenience of not pumping anymore...and able to sleep later! yippie!

Well....on to other things...

He tried something new this morning....apples and dates oats cereal with milk. Yesterday i made cheesy pasta stars and he took it.
I'm glad as he totally refused my pasta stars with carrot the other day, probably cos it tasted "tasteless"...well basically carrots alone didn't do the job well.

This time i specially cooked the sauce to stir with the pasta stars. And little boy needs more liquids now since he's on full FM.

Little boy is on full fledged chewing as his four upper teeth has grown. There are two lower ones in the middle and the side teeth are cutting their way out now.

Is that why he is totally refusing bottles now?

Haiz, i wish he could tell mummy what actually went wrong.

P/s. Mummy seems to be getting sick again...her flu is reporting. She keeps sneezing.
Please don't fall sick! *crosses fingers*

House reno is going to start sooner as we have change the key collection date to 6Jan, which is coincidentally our customary wedding anniversary =)

At Eight Months....

2009-12-12T01:00:00.005+08:00

This is the most recent ME!! I love this pair of jeans! and so does mummy cos she bought it for me =D

Finally uploaded the photos. Phew.
Now mummy feels she is short of a family photo. Where did it go to?

Postdated photos (six months) with new friend

2009-12-12T00:47:00.008+08:00

Oh look at my chickie friend! *with compliments by my ah gong*

Chickie is toppling!

Oh wait something else caught my attention...

Ok mummy tells me to smile at the cammy....i mean, camera....And so i did!!

Have a great smiling day!

The little mahjong expert

2009-12-12T00:27:00.008+08:00

Come...huat ah...let me hold a good tile...

++Feels tile++....hmmm, 紅中, 發財 or 白板?

None of it....++discards tile++

**Second round**
Must say HUAT AH!! Then the tile will come to me....*come on come on* i hope to zi muo this time....

OK I've had it, when is my wanted tile going to come!!!

Better luck next time!!

A well-fed boy is a happy boy....

2009-12-12T00:10:00.006+08:00

I realise i have not been updating this blog for ages. Tired sia...and lazy =x

Now kyan is the little king of the house. He achieved another major milestone today. He can stand up by himself holding onto the edge of his playpen! *well done baby~!*

Nowadays this mummy is pretty much addicted to making purees for little king, and surprisingly enjoys the process very much. Count himself lucky as this mummy gave no nuts to cooking way before she was crowned the title of mum =P

Now she has tried to make different fruits, meat and vegetable purees, have them frozen in baby cubes so that granny will have an easier time feeding little king.

On his weaning diet, he has tried broccoli, salmon and cheese! Yes cheezeeeee....cheddar and parmesan does the job. He has tried egg yolk a few days ago hopefully that won't cause any allergies. He has taken mango, blueberries, peaches and a couple of fruits now. Can say his lover is still the apples. He just took chicken few days ago.

Now he can take a heavy meal, eg. a 3/4 or almost full bowl of porridge, 1/2 or 1 cube of fruit and milk (usually about 30ml to 50ml).

He is turning nine months next thursday. Happy nine months in advance my dear boy =)

Christmas is coming!! Daddy and Mummy hopes to bring you to see the decorations and lightings some time soon. We are also shifting house early next year (mummy and daddy is going to get the house keys on 8Jan) and mummy hopes she can get the house ready by 13Mar so that the housewarming could coincide with my first birthday =)

Second haircut~Recent Updates

2009-11-13T18:28:00.006+08:00

Thank goodness Kyan has recovered from the massive attacks since last week. It has been a rather tough week for all of us. But this naughty boy is still up to his usual tricks....he doesn't seem able to suck out milk smoothly from the teat, making those "tock tock" sounds here and there and the milk still stays almost the same level 10 mins later *insert expressionless mode here* If he wants to drink, the milk bottle will be emptied in 5mins flat.

Baby K is reaching 8 months very soon!! Fast right....he is very fast in his actions too...crawling and rolling here and there. Most of the times he managed to sit himself upright from a lying position in his playpen.

This is one video of him crawling....notice his attempt at a "banana split" during the start of the video (haha)

We brought him for a second haircut at hwa xia @ Harbourfront last Sat cos his hair has become too long. He has been sweating very often.

I am on leave today! Decided to make some purees for Kyan involving the apricot as i have decided to introduce to Kyan today. I had to go to Nature's Farm and get the dried apricots which are un-sulphured.
1) Porridge with apricot and apple. I mixed bellamy's baby porridge which i cooked with BM and blend together with the apricot and apple. Kyan seems to like it.
2) Apple, Pear and Apricot puree. Made 3 portions and freeze them
3) The other day i made the trio of vegetables puree (pumpkin, parsnip and carrots). Freeze 4 portions.

Going to try sweetcorn and chicken next. Exciting!

Annabel karmel's website offers very good recipes. Try it!

Today is my first attempt at bringing little boy out alone (to Compasspoint), and boy, it was tiring cos i had to carry him in the carrier and it was a strain on my shoulders (painful...sobz...i think i must have sprained some nerve way before as i had problem with shoulder pain since long time back). I wonder how am i going to do this again....

The first time Kyan became so sick...

2009-11-03T14:28:00.004+08:00

Poor kyan has been attacked by the many viruses since last Wed.

Mummy is sick along with him as well, with a cough and sore throat plus a bit of a running nose. She is on MC today.

We brought him to see a GP nearby but his medicine doesn't seem to work.

He is still sick as of today, and it has been nearly one week with the viral infections.

First was a fever and mild cough + abit of blocked nose which started last Thurs. Symptoms were displayed on Wed. We bought him to see the GP early morning. His fever persisted till the next day and his cough worsened as well. Poor boy has mucus flowing down whenever he sneezed and was sniffing terribly. We thought the medicine didn't help so we brought him back to see the same GP who this time round, prescribed antibiotics.

The next day (sat), poor boy actually threw up at 11am+, TWICE within an interval of just about 5 to 10mins apart. Kun and i freaked out cos it was alot, so we called up my mum and was advised that maybe the antibiotics caused him to throw up the phlegm as well, so it should be ok. At night he had red swollen eyes and we were worried if he's allergic to the antibiotics, so we decided to monitor the condition till the next day.

P/s. I wish to thank my mum who came over to help in the afternoon.

On Sunday, thank goodness his eyes were ok, but we had a new problem. He had diahorrea! Ogh gosh what happen?? We continued to monitor the situation and by evening, kyan threw up again. This time we were determined to bring him straight to KKH.

The doctor at KKH (young lady) checked kyan's throat and said it was red. She asked us to stop the antibiotics (which actually can cause diahorrea) but continue with the nose drops the GP prescribed, along with some new medicine (for phlegm, wind in stomach - yes kyan has alot of wind in his tummy...).

Today is Tuesday and his cough doesn't get better even after taking all those medicine. In fact it worsened. Poor boy was coughing till his face showed lines of discomfort, breathlessness and exhaustion. He had breathing difficulties and a wheezing sound whenever he coughs and breathes. We decided to bring him to Dr Teoh immediately.

Now he's sleeping after drinking 120ml of milk plus the medication that Dr Teoh prescribed. Dr Teoh had to nebulize the poor boy as his cough and breathing is quite bad.

Mummy is upset and heartbroken seeing him like that =( Pray the little boy will recover soon.

New milestones and the first brush

2009-10-28T14:26:00.000+08:00

Kyan has finally crawled forward instead of backwards!!

Its another milestone achieved =D

He definitely recognises people now. He chooses the person who can carry him. As we stretch our hands out in a "do u want me to carry u?" gesture, he arches his body forward to be carried. Most of the time he seems ok with everyone and anyone....hehe

He learns to blabber some sounds which only he seems to understand...LOL....

Mummy just love him the way he is =D

Two days ago, I use a finger brush and first toothpaste to brush his little teeth and massage his gums. After finishing with it, he wanted more by opening his mouth and pulling hand (and the finger with the brush) towards him. See? This little boy probably thought the toothpaste was food.

Things seem to take a better stride. Little one's been drinking and eating more now. Dr Teoh advised mummy to continue breastfeeding till one year old. Hmm can i ever reach there?

Visit to a new PD...new developments!

2009-10-25T15:18:00.009+08:00

Little one's little upper front tooth has also grown out.

He loves to bite and chew and gnaw on things, all thanks to teething. Just a moment ago, he was opening his mouth when he saw my mum biting a pear, so she let him just suck on the pear for a while. So cuteeeeee.

He is learning to sit from a crawl position. He's still crawling backwards but trying to do it forward.

He has learnt to hold his own bottle! What a MIRACLE for a baby who doesn't love to drink. This morning, he pulled the bottle towards his own mouth with his hands and held the bottle with his two little palms after that. Guess he will only do this if he is really hungry.

He loves people saying bye bye to him, and this is evidenced from his wide chuckle whenever we wave and go BYE BYE!! He flings his arms and kicks his legs in excitement when we are about to leave the house. I guess this little one loves to go out like his daddy.

He's on a new feeding routine now. Four hourly despite hunger hints in between. No choice, he will drink and eat more if he's hungry. If we give in to his cries of hunger before the time is up, he won't eat and drink much and his whole routine will be interrupted again.

We were advised to do this through Dr Teoh's recommendation. Thanks to Jo, we brought kyan to see Dr Teoh @ Mount E yesterday as he still refused to eat and drink. Dr Teoh found a thick vein underneath his tongue which is actually the root of the problem for his refusal to eat and drink much. We wanted to have it cut but Dr Teoh refused to do it due to my "hesitation" as he quoted. He asked us to try the new feeding routine to see how things go first. So far all is good and things have improved today and i'm happy about it. Dr Teoh asked us to let him know how things go on wednesday. Though he is a grumpy doctor, his advises are good and helpful.

Pray that things will just go for the better and kyan will put on the necessary weight soon. He's so small and skinny compared to other babies his age group in general.

As advised by the doctor, I cannot stop breastfeeding for now and have to continue until Kyan's feeding/eating problem is resolved. Since he's already on the lightweight scale, Dr Teoh was glad that at least i still give him breastmilk as its healthy and beneficial compared to formula milk. Lucky my milk flow has not totally stopped (since i already have plans to stop breastfeeding and have deliberately decreased milk supply since a few days ago) so my milk supply has dropped alot already. I just hope i can maintain this supply for the time being with just two pump sessions for the day.

Goodbye to Breastfeeding!!

2009-10-20T23:44:00.006+08:00

Today is the day....

MUMMY HAS FINALLY DECIDED.....

SHE WILL STOP BREASTFEEDING...

These past seven months+ have been a feat for her actually.
Struggling to make kyan drink her BM....waking up in the wee and early hours to pump...coping with blocked milk ducts and engorgement.

I guess thats enough already, given that kyan has been drinking it for at least half a year.

Her target is eight months, and she is glad she did it.

She don't mind continuing but since kyan doesn't to drink, she finds it quite pointless. It is hard for her to give up breastfeeding given the milk supply she has, but there is no point anymore...its just sad but thats reality. Kyan doesn't want to latch anymore, he doesn't seem to like drinking mummy's BM anymore.

Anyway mummy gives herself a pat on her back =)

Tomorrow will be a start to decreasing milk supply and eventually stop the milk flow...Cold cabbage here i come! She still has freezer stocks left she's hoping to last till when kyan is eight months, but yea she's going to try to stop pumping liao. Enough is enough?

Goodbye breastfeeding....!!!

At 7 months....Fussy fussy fussy...

2009-10-17T11:33:00.002+08:00

Happy 7months old my little terror! =P
Happy 1 year old to Stephanie Jie Jie too! =)

Time flies. It has been more than 1/2 a year since he popped out of my womb bawling away.

Mummy suddenly thought about her school days and realised that time waits for no one...it seemed just like yesterday that she and her bunch of friends behaved like innocent and playful kids running around the school compound.

Somehow she missed those days.

She felt that she has aged. Now they are all mummies.

EMO again.

Anyway my little terror has been out to create more havoc. He has become sensibly naughty. Thats just the word.

This morning I tried to feed him but he refused to drink, forcefully pushing the bottle away causing it to topple.

My hard pumped EBM spilled over the floor and the sofa.

I got kind of mad and beat beat his hand since he did that after several attempts of making him drink.

Guess thats the way my boy is.

Things turn out for the worse these few days. He refused to drink and even eat his porridge!

We brought him to see Dr Alyssa Tan at Kids Clinic (Rivervale Mall) for a scond opinion. The first time consulation costed $60 and the little bottle of vitamins costed $40, totally $107+ (including GST).

MY gawd. I'm not bringing him back to see her again just to exchange that few words and that little bottle of vitamins.

Kyan has tried bananas and seemed to like it. He started on Heinz Multigrain Banana Breakfast yesterday.

He likes the Heinz cookie too. So probably going to give him daily.

Next up on the menu will be grape juice. He seemed to dislike pears. No wonder he refused to take the pear and pumpkin puree i made for him the other day.

Will try grape juice next.

Spot my pearlies...

2009-10-09T19:35:00.004+08:00

Hi everyone! Can you spot my white pearlies??? =D

This was taken before he was fed porridge just a moment ago!

So far these are the majority of the purees he has tried on his weaning diet.

Avocado
Butternut squash
Apple
Pear
Sweet Potato
Potato
Sweet Baby Vegetables
Pasta in Tomato & Ham Sauce

The cereals:
Oatmeal
Barley
Brown Rice
Si Sen Powder with ikan bilis

And he's being introduced to carrot and fish for the first time in his porridge today!

His many expressions...

2009-10-09T18:37:00.004+08:00

Sulky look....???? Grouchy Look???? Grumpy Look????

U name it...

Sorry for the shakes as i was filming with one hand and trying to prevent kyan's hand swiping at me with my other hand!

Tough job! *sweats*

Dreaded stuffs....kyan is learning to crawl!

2009-10-09T17:59:00.004+08:00

My menses reported in full force yesterday. I was taken by surprise since i thought breastfeeding will delay menses, but i was wrong! Sianzation. I was haunted by the dreaded cramps again! No wonder i was feeling so tired the days prior to this visit of my "da yi ma". Took a day off today since i don't think i can work with this tiredness and crappy cramps.

Even though my milk supply did drop but i guess its still manageable in that sense, since kyan is not drinking that much, and i still have some freezer stocks left. But this little boy is still as naughty as ever, refuse to drink milk, and now worse, refuse to eat also! Sometimes really can vomit blood lor!

Bought Bellamy's toothiepegs and the heinz cookie to mix with his usual milk. Aiya, whatever new thing to try just try la....don't know what he likes also...don't want to eat and don't want to drink don't know what he wants lor.

Ok some updates about this little one. His two bottom front white pearlies have popped up. So cute. I wanted to take a photo of his new pearlie whites but no chance. He won't open his mouth unnecessarily u know. Oh speaking of which, if he doesn't want to eat or drink he will shut his mouth so tight it was impossible to insert the spoon in. And he bites...and bites...hard at the spoon (as the teething causes his gums to be itchy) so i got the Tollyjoy rubber spoon and not the plastic one. Safer and softer for him to bite on.

He is now into crawling too, not forwards but backwards. He pushed his body back and forth several times. This is his favourite for the time being. Sometimes he tries to move in front and end up like he's "swimming"...hehe...but eventually he crawled backwards...he can also sit unassisted for quite some time.

And he now has preferences. You give him two toys he chooses the one he likes...he will grab the things you are holding or try to touch your face. If he is so attached to something, like his bolster, you better don't try snatching away cos you have no chance. He grabs it with the might of his awesome little strength. He will do a swipe at your face or uses his fingers to scratch you. Ouch!

Here's the video of him pushing his body back and forth, back and forth....and rotated his body in a roundabout fashion....

Last dose of 6-in-1

2009-09-26T16:26:00.000+08:00

Little kyan had his last dose of the 6-in-1 jab on wednesday.

The jab this time round seemed to be stronger as his fever persisted for at least a day, comparatively to the first two jabs where the fever wasn't that persistent.

Dr Vanessa did her usual examinations on kyan. This time round, she voiced out that kyan's weight is lower than the normal percentile, which means that we have to pay more attention to his weight gain. He is in fact, pretty lightweight and is smaller than normal-sized babies. It got me worried. How to gain weight when he doesn't want to drink milk? Dr Vanessa advised us to add in milk to whatever solids which we may offer to him, like cereals or fruits. She mentioned that kyan should be drinking 800ml per day to be on the good side. 500 to 600ml is like the passing mark now.

She added that we should not start on porridge so soon, but after he turned seven months. So for now, its only cereals and purees.

Mummy is stressed. Baby yo, can't u just guai guai drink milk...don't drink how to gain weight neh?

No more further jabs till he turns one year old, unless we want to let him take the pneumoccocal jab...daddy wants to administer little kyan for the jab only after he is one year old, cos i guess he is heartpain seeing kyan get poked so many times (and mummy too).

Pneumoccal jab, if administered on his seven month, will have to be taken 3x. After 12 months - 2x and 24months - 1x

Each jab freakingly costs $170!

New weaning recipe...porridge!

2009-09-22T23:31:00.003+08:00

My mil started kyan out on porridge today and he absolutely loves it!

Heard that he wanted to eat more but mil and kun stopped feeding him, cos they were afraid he didn't know how to control...somemore first try ma, better start small..

I will have to learn how to make porridge for him also, felt ashamed that i know nuts about cooking.

My uncle has invited little kyan to be the "boy jumper on his new bed" for his big wedding event next saturday....wow, looking forward to it!

Tomorrow little kyan will take his last dose of 6-in-1...hmm, hope he doesn't have fever...*crosses fingers*...as now his teething, it seem to double his chances of having fever...

I'm So So So So soooooooooo tired. I'm having terrible tuesday blues as yesterday was the Hari Raya holiday. Sian to go work man...

Gymboree Lesson - 19Sep

2009-09-21T23:46:00.000+08:00

We headed to Harbourfront and reached there at 11.55am before the start of the gymboree lesson at 12pm.

The instructor greeted the children with a clown figure singing a song...

Can you spot kyan and me? Very obvious la huh...the third person counting from the left of the clown...

The instructor guided us parents with a series of steps to enhance the babies' exploration skills, like getting us to lie on our back and putting the baby on our legs in mid-air while talking and singing, putting the baby on our laps, swinging them lightly from side to side while singing in a merri-go-round kind of rhythm. Fun but tiring for mummy! hahaha...

Next the instructor advised us to let our babies use the equipment like the slides, swings they have there...to enhance their motor skills...

Next up colourful balls came tumbling out as we sat in a circle...The babies love the colorful balls! In fact a number of them were putting them into their mouths...haha! Some of them drooling and all...lol...anyway, kyan was pretty nonchalent actually. Wasn't that excited i wonder whether he really loves flooding in the midst of the colorful round things.

Haha this little kid was enthusiastic being #1 ball catcher. He was the first to reach for the ball! His name is Leonard and he seems to be the oldest baby within the group.

Look at me trying to get him to grab a ball :-/

The instructor had also created a parachuting colorful effect for the babies to enjoy...i guess color simulation was the key factor throughout the program.

Baby Marissa, Baby Andrique and Me!!

We also get to enjoy watching and playing with bubbles sitting on the big parachute!

All in all kyan doesn't seem to be able to focus well on the instructor and the class itself. Perhaps he's still too young?

Poor boy is teething...so bad...lessons for little one

2009-09-20T23:56:00.005+08:00

Little Kyan's bottom front teeth is popping out.

Poor boy is very discomforted. He keeps crying and crying, his tears flow down and he is extremely cranky and it has been especially difficult for him to fall asleep.

My poor baby. It hurts his mummy to see him like that :(

Kyan bite my finger when i tried rubbing teething gel on him. And he keeps rubbing his ears too. According to Jo, it is because of teething pain.

BIG SIGHZ....

I wish this period will be over soon....

And then to make things more difficult, kyan keeps flipping whenever we changed his diapers. He is overly-enthusiastic. Yes thats the word - OVERLY. He wants to flip even before we are done changing his diapers! And he keeps twisting his body so that he could flip and after we pinned him down he does it again and again and again. Don't see him small boy his strength quite alot woah. It is so difficult to change diapers or clothes now!

Some updates:-
Went for gymboree lesson at Harbourfront yesterday. Hmmz...i think little one is not concentrating enough. He keeps moving his focus elsewhere. My guess is that he's still too young.
But i'm not signing up for the lessons, since Lynn and Karen advised that it gets monotonous after some time.

Kindermusic up next, at Tanglin Mall.

Then Music Class at Harbourfront again. Managed to apply for the gymboree membership + two trial classes at a fee of $50.

Kyan is 6months old!

2009-09-17T16:20:00.003+08:00

Kyan is six months old today! This day has finally come.

Why am i so obsessed with this six month mark?? Cos this means that little kyan is now fully ready to be on solids and I can officially give up breastfeeding!!!!!! Hooray!!!!! The six month is just like an official mark. Of course, i still hope to persevere breastfeeding till kyan is at least eight months. In fact I don't quite feel to set myself a target anymore...just trying as long as i can as long as i still have my milk supply.

I have been lazy to blog about the changes these days. Life goes on but little one has grown bigger, smarter and stronger! haha.

What warms me is the fact that everytime i reach home there is this big toothless grin that little one flashes to me. He will kick his hands and legs excitedly and i instantly knew he recognises mummy immediately and is looking forward to seeing me back. Ahhh....talk about the wonders of motherhood.

Kyan has managed to flip from his back to tummy and vice versa. He's also trying to push himself and my guess is he will learn to crawl very soon. Thats when we will start fencing all the sharp edges and corners.

And he loves to play "jump jump" when we carry him upright...he will use his legs and "jump" upwards. And he can never sit still now. Talk about being an active boy just like his dad...like father like son...haha!

Nowadays we start putting him in the playpen if he's alone cos he will roll onto the floor when we placed him on the mattress. One moment he's on the mattress and next moment could be on the floor liao...so to be safe...playpen is the solution. I was even thinking of playmat but thats an expensive investment and not quite worth i feel. Maybe a mattress or playpen could do an equivalent job.

Meal Schedule - Kyan's milk intake dropped. Nowadays he can only drink about 140ml every 4hours or sometimes even 5hours. The most he can go is 160ml, but seldom.
He is on one feed cereal and one feed puree daily.

Gathering at Grandma's place...Time for weaning!

2009-08-24T22:39:00.005+08:00

Little Kyan met up with Nigel di di and Stephy Jie Jie yesterday as they and mummy's friends came over to my ah-ma's (maternal) house @ hougang yesterday. Wanted to take photo with stephy jie jie but she didn't want to lie down...but Kyan managed to take with Nigel! Yippie....

Nigel didi shake hands with me...we are brothers and friends!

I'm so happy i get to take photos with Nigel di di!

Currently at 5months and 1week, Mummy has started me on a weaning schedule. I was being fed Earth's Best organic sweet potatoes and i absolutely love it!! The moment I saw mummy with the scoop of potatoes puree on hand, i plunged forward and stick my tongue out and mummy knew i love it. She fed about about two to three spoonfuls each time.

Grandma fed me Earth's Best First Pears today. At first i get the sort of a sour-ish look but later it was ok...

Mummy is working out on my weaning schedule. Whats next? Avocado puree or mashed apple? Is mummy going to feed me cereal? Haiz, kids are so spoilt with so many choices that mummy doesn't know how to start!

Photos with Mummy n Daddy at 4months!

2009-08-16T22:36:00.011+08:00

Here are some photos i took with mummy!

And here are some shots with daddy! I love putting my fist into my mouth!

And this is me!!

Swimming in the tub

2009-08-16T21:52:00.008+08:00

This was the video of my very first swimming lesson at hwa xia!

Here is kyan's swimming lesson for the second time at hwa xia...

He looks terrified in this picture! Yes i think he feared swimming for quite a bit..wonder if it will get better next time or he's just not used to it???

And here is one swimming photo at home in his personal swimming tub...

My Significant Milestone!

2009-08-15T21:21:00.009+08:00

Kun and i brought kyan over to Michelle's son's one year celebration. Thank goodness kyan didn't make a fuss during the celebration! My colleague carried him and he was ok with it.

However things weren't as well before we stepped out of the house in the morning. We let him have a dip in his personal swimming tub but he was rather terrified in it as he was looking for a handle on the float to hold on to. Eventually his look of terror stayed so much we decided to take him out of the pool after about 5 to 10mins. At 12pm+ we needed to feed him before leaving the house, but he just wouldn't cooperate despite me coercing him to drink milk for an hour. And now he's very smart! Don't want milk? Use both his hands to push the bottle and teat out of his mouth!

Finally received the awaited Gracie the Giraffe made by one of the forum mummies. No it wasn't FOC, but it was so nice that i had to buy one for kyan. The colours were indeed sparkling beautiful and captivating for the eyes :)

Kyan smiles and says..."look at my new found friend!"

*Hear no evil!!!*

Good news! He finally did his full flip today!!! There were a lot of previous unsuccessful attempts as one of his hands got stuck underneath but he managed to take it out this time round. My mum actually enticed kyan with the giraffe you see in this picture. He managed to free his hand while staring at the colours intensely...is that the magic of Gracie??

See me flip!! Tummy time!

Daddy is that a camera u are holding? *blur blur*

I'm going to try crawling...

And more to come...I'm going to be successful in a couple more weeks time!

Milk strike over?

2009-08-06T21:37:00.004+08:00

Kyan seems to have grown out outta his milk strike, which is a good thing! Now he can drink up till the highest at 170ml and the last feed was about 4 to 5hours back. But generally on an average of 120ml to 150ml.

Now he starts to put everything into his mouth already....teething baby! poor boy!

He's ever so talkative now! Cheeky little boy...

I guess it will be fun to start him on solids on his 6th month. He seems to be interested in seeing us eat. He's now on Similac on the last feed for the night. During the daytimes, its either brown rice powder mixed with EBM or just the pure EBM.

Bought the neck float + swimming tub for him and realise he doesn't like the neck float...sigh! Just hope its cos we didn't put the neck float well around his neck.

Kyan's sleeping patterns seem to be abit distorted over the past 2 days. Usually he has no problem sleeping through till 6am+ from his last feed at about 10pm+. These days, he started waking up early at 5am wanting milk! Another growth spurt?

At my mum's....addictive online shopping

2009-08-02T00:07:00.007+08:00

It was a one week hiatus for my mil, who had her hand injured and still not recovered for the past few weeks. The nagging pain came on and off. As i wanted to give her a break and some time to heal her hand, kyan was brought over to my mum's instead. Together with my mum (she and i took a week's leave) we took care of kyan since monday. Kyan and I stayed at my mum's place during this period. I am really thankful i have my mum to help, or else i have no idea how i would have been able to cope (judging from kyan's fussy drinking habits). But there is one thing i really must thank for...that is the sarong (yaolan) that karen loan to us cos it makes things easier sometimes....thanks karen! However this little boy is an active one. The other day my mum put him into the sarong he fidgetted here and there and BANG! His head hit against the side metal bar of the sarong and he cried really badly with a ba luku on his forehead. My mum used a boiled egg to rub on that area and it subsided after that.

Kyan still proves a toughie when drinking milk...though now my mum is more experienced with this little one's patterns. Mummies are still the more experienced ones, they know how to deal...thanks to the previous experiences bringing us up.

Kyan now has little white teeth forming at his gums though his first tooth hasn't literally popped up yet...so he's pretty cranky. I guess its due to the teething discomforts. On top of it sometimes the weather just kills. its darn hot!!! wahhhhh....He is a really "yang oh" baby...why? everytime see us always "ehh ehh" then next moment cry expect us to carry him...aiyo....

I think by now he has recognised who is who...yesterday i displayed the action of asking whether he wants me to carry, and he arched his body towards me...how cute!!

But sometimes he doesn't want mummy....BOO HOOO!!! =( so sad lo, prefers his grandma instead. Cos he will cry and cry and i failed to pacify him...so my mum took charge and he stopped crying....wonder why? Is it because i have the milk smell on me and he hates it?

Have started to add in the rice powder into the breastmilk. I guess variety works better for him. He's on one feed of FM and one feed of rice powder+EBM daily, with the other feeds still on EBM.

Nowadays i also try to stretch my pumping sessions. Sometimes work, sometimes not. End up with painful and engorged breasts. I guess i'm better off pumping 3x a day still. Don't be too greedy stretching pump sessions ya...wanted to give up breastfeeding and pumping actually, but no guts yet. Now kyan seems to drink EBM again, probably because as i mentioned, there is variety for him since i included FM/rice powder into one of his feeds now.

Ok now to my shopping stuffs. I have finally bought a yellow swimming tub for kyan. Cannot tahan...hehe....i guess i am addicted to online shopping le...v dangerous. Got cheap photo frames, clothes and belts and some miscellaneous stufs for myself and kyan. Better control control...*bites teeth*...daddy has given me "warning" le...better control....

Today finally took the first family photo..

The second Hep B jab and rotavirus

2009-07-18T22:21:00.005+08:00

Kyan had his second dose of Hep B today with the rotavirus vaccination. Now i'm still monitoring every now and then to make sure he doesn't have fever *frowns*

We highlighted to Dr Vanessa about his fussiness over feedings. She said his nephew is also like that...but generally if he's drinking a range of 400ml to 800ml per day is ok (400ml on the low side and 800ml on the high side, 600ml is normal). However if he's drinking less than 400ml we gotta bring him back to the clinic for fear of dehydration. So guess we shouldn't expect too much ba?

She checked on kyan and highlighted that he's ok other than his rashes on neck (which have now developed into an infection already) and diagnosed that it has been a very long time since the rashes were there, and she was right. We tried applying "shen long powder" but she did not encourage that, and prescribed western medicine cream and powder instead. So now we got to be diligent in applying.

Dr Vanessa also highlighted that kyan has teething symptoms when we asked her to check, so teething gel was prescribed. Teething will also affect appetite.

And we are so desperate that we are trying spoon feeding now...haiz...it works sometimes yet not...so tough to feed him now *double frowns*...was i that fussy during my pregnancy? Maybe i was thats why kyan is like that.

Happy 4th Month!!

2009-07-18T20:16:00.015+08:00

Happy 4th month to my little boy!

Ok that was yesterday...pardon me for the delay as i was trying to upload the videos and photos of the shaving and swimming process...and i wasn't very lucky in doing so to speak. Anyway we brought kyan to hwa xia for a clean hair shave and dip in the tub. Surprisingly little one was super calm during the shaving process and made no fuss at all! After that he had a dip in the pool...he did cry for abit but after that can see he enjoyed it. He was so relaxed that he actually fell asleep! Wanted to do the massage for him but didn't, as we went for lunch first and nigel fell asleep so we all head back home instead. The photos during the shave were abit blur, since I couldn't get the cam to work and had to use the hp instead...how timely! Grrrr....

Getting ready to be shaven...sobz!!

There....see my hair gone...gone...gone....

Ok mummy..i'm closing my eyes....tired....

Swimming swimming! I'm a mer-boy! (mummy's definition of a mermaid-boy :P)

Ok great i've fallen asleep in that cosy hot pool...or rather a tub

And mummy upon reaching home took some photos too! This is mummy's solo photo with me after four months! The last solo photo was in the hospital!! (as to what mummy recalls...OMG rite!)

And more photos! I can sit straight now?! haha...no la, see my cushion behind???

ok mummy thats enough i'm getting bored liao!

I want my BALL!!

2009-07-17T17:35:00.003+08:00

Mummy snatching my ball away....how can!!

The challenge comes from...FEEDING!!!

2009-07-17T17:22:00.006+08:00

Kyan's been totally rejecting milk already...he hates milk?! OMG then how i was wondering...don't babies before 4months survive on milk alone? Sometimes i think it gets pretty sick drinking only milk for that 4months...no wonder kyan became really fussy.

Its a challenge feeding him everytime. Poor mil who feeds and take care of him more than his parents.

Tried spoon feeding with milk and he doesn't like too. These days we had to feed the hard way, either force (which of course there was no other way) or wait till he's in a sleep mode so he drinks while in lala-land.

A few days ago, daddy fed him when he was sleeping. The next moment when he put him up straight in a sitting position, kyan cried immediately...i'm serious! It was an immediate reaction. WHY? Cos he realised he drank milk when he saw the empty milk bottle!!!

Ahhhh how clever the in-generation kids are these days? Well don't try to fool them mind you.

Even before we even put the teat in his mouth, he cries and shift his head away when we put the hanky on his chest and lay him almost horizontally...he knows he's going to drink milk!

How clever is that?! Have i eaten too much fish oil and DHA pills when i was pregnant? HAHA!!

Third Month Photos

2009-07-06T20:52:00.007+08:00

Some photos of kyan at the third month...

My little sunshine

2009-07-06T20:37:00.002+08:00

This is my little sunshine....he brings joy to my life.... =D

Second scan visit....updates

2009-07-05T11:03:00.003+08:00

I'm pretty much used to breastfeeding already. Its been a whole three months+ since the day kyan was born and i was breastfeeding since then. Its been a tough journey, but i know it is all worth it.

I'm been even trying to stretch my pump sessions to 3x daily instead of the usual 4. This means to say a pump interval of about 7 to 8 hours. And i'm glad to say, i've been quite successful in doing so. Engorgement happens much less already (my guess is my breasts are already used to making that amount of milk and my milk level has adjusted to kyan's needs), and milk supply seems to have gone back up again since my food poisoning incident. Now i can sometimes yield 300ml+ per pump again with my manual avent pump (yes now i love my avent manual compared to my ameda electric as i can express more with the manual pump). Its as good as it gets though i don't need so much milk since kyan is now drinking only 140ml every 3.5 to 4 hours, sometimes even lesser. But the reinstated milk supply has boosted my confidence i may be able to carry on for another couple of months or so (at least when kyan turns 6months of age).

Kyan, as usual hates to drink milk. He just hates it to the core. Maybe he likes formula better..but i still insist on giving him the best, that is...breastmilk.

Haiz...the things we mummies go though.

Kyan is a talkative boy...smiley and cheeky too. Knows how to melt out hearts. His emotions can be extreme though. One moment he is smiling cheerfully and the next moment, he's a shrieking naughty boy. He has unclenched his fists and started to pull his clothes everytime, and putting the beanie bag into his mouth. Really must keep a watch out already, so that he don't cover his face with it.

Yesterday brought him for his second heart scan at Mount E. Dr Wong said that his heart is now functioning normally and the holes have closed as he was doing the scan. Good news for celebration! And kyan laid still while the doctor was performing the scan, so much that he said kyan is a very good boy! I laughed and told him he's a little terror! Wait till he goes back home and shows all his true colors *LOL*

Ok update on some buys.
1) Narforye Air-Flow cooling mat
2) Narforye Nylon Multi Purpose Bag
3) Maclaren Quest stroller
4) Teethers
5) Anti-mosquito patch from korea
6) Photo frames for kyan's photos

Milk Supply...and cheeky + naughty boy

2009-06-29T14:45:00.003+08:00

Little boy now loves to lick and chew his fists, his hands, mummy's hands, daddy's hands, EVERYWHERE...even our clothes...his clothes....always like to stick out his tongue and looks very cheeky. I suspect he's teething cos he's drooling now...need to buy a bib soon (oops is that mummy's excuse to shop)....when we carry him, he likes to brush his face against our clothes....and he also likes to rub his face until red red....wonder if its because he's feeling itchy? Poor boy has heat rashes on his neck too, so we are applying medical powder on it hoping the redness will go off.

This mini wrestler of mine hates to drink milk....really wonder why? He will shake his head from side to side trying to shake the teat off, how naughty! Either that he'll just cry or play with the teats, eventually pushing it outta his mouth.

Well i guess my milk supply has been rather unstable these days, but in general it has dropped ever since i started work.

Alot of reasons i can think of....

1) Ever since that food poisoning episode, my MS has dropped like crazy. Now been pumping 7hourly and all but never reach 300ml+ as before. Besides i don't feel engorgement already (call for celebration? or NOT?)...the most recent time i had engorgement was on sunday (but it was after a period of 9hours...9 HOURS!)...sometimes i barely scrape through the 200ml mark liao...sighz...
2) STRESS. Yes stress over work, home, everything....stress to pump at work, stress to bring those pump things everyday....basically stress.
3) Lack of sleep. Imagine having less than 7hours of sleep everyday. Long gone were the days of 7hours sleep. Now i'll be thankful if i have 6hours of sleep. Sleep late cos have to pump, wake up early cos have to pump.
4) Headache causing agent. What the....i've been having headaches for like every other day. V pain....suspect due to reason no.3
5) WORK. WOrk and work....TIRED!!
6) Kyan don't seem to appreciate breastmilk and breastfeeding as much liao...My mentality and motivation to breastfeed is actually bruised by quite a fair bit. I believe a positive mindset is important for maintaining milk supply, if not worsen it.
7) Shorter pumping time and longer pump intervals. How the heck can i find the time to pump more than 30mins per session each time at work? Limit to 30mins per session, sometimes i "eat" abit over the time, but generally 30mins should be appropriate. Cannot be pumping at work for too long.

Now it makes me think perhaps worrying over pumping at work is a needless issue if i cannot breastfeed anymore should my milk disappeared one day. Its sad ya, but i cannot deny that day might come, judging from my life right now. Its just kinda hard to maintain that level of milk supply which i used to establish when i was in confinement and maternity.

But kyan definitely does not understand. He is still wasting lots of milk...sighz....

Re: Food poisoning. I thought i have fully recovered but apparently i still have on and off terrible stomach pains. Drats! Means my tum tum really not 100% recovered. I better abstain from sinful foods. BIG SIGH.

Upset....end of breastfeeding?

2009-06-23T11:44:00.006+08:00

Very upset today. Kyan is refusing my BM already. He is starting to take to FM.

This morning, we gave him frozen BM (as i was down with food poisoning hence there was no fresh bm to give) but he was crying the whole house down....so we switched to his favourite bottle but the result is the same.

Then i was taught a method by jo to add in two scoops of formula to the frozen BM....but it did not help either...kyan still cried the whole house down. We also switched to his favourite bottle but it was no use.

So finally i told my mil to try with FM...he drank it all.

Feeling so upset. It makes matters worse when i still have not fully recovered from my food poisoning episode since yesterday. Vomitted and have diarrhoea like more than 5x already. Totally lost my appetite and milk supply dipped too. Daddy too, was down with food poisoning. This makes us two poor souls. On top of suffering from the tortures of being sick, i still had to pump my milk and throw away, can't latch kyan on even though he was crying the whole house down. Every day i had to lug my heavy cooler bag, schedule time to pump in the office, bring the milk back home just for the sake of this little boy but he is now rejecting BM. How cruel can this be?

This behaviour has been incalculated in kyan since a month and more ago, where he has been very fussy over feeds. We wonder whats the problem so i got the teats all changed but it still doesn't help. Don't know if its milk problem until today i realised could it be he doesn't like BM at all?

Does that signal the end of my breastfeeding path?

Official third month....chatterbox!

2009-06-17T22:53:00.005+08:00

My darling has turned 3 months old today!

He is much more playful (and naughtier) now....and yes, talkative too! Chatterboxxxxx haha! Here are two videos where you see him "talking" to Bugs Bunny and Friends aka his pillow (HAHA)...apparently its a one-sided thing :P but he's obviously enjoying himself =D

Boon Family - Kyan looks like Daddy or Mummy?

2009-06-15T21:42:00.000+08:00

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Breastfeeding woes....and botak boy?

2009-06-15T21:27:00.003+08:00

BLOCKED DUCTS BLOCKED DUCTS BLOCKED DUCTS....how many more times do i have to face this?! blehz! Despite engaging Mdm ROkiah to unblock the ducts for me, they still keep coming back to haunt me....WHY WHY WHY?!?!?!

I've been back to work for a week already....still trying to get used to the new (and well....busy) routine....

I'm very tired....wish that there was more time for me to zzzZzzz....yes i badly need sleep....cannot imagine i can have only less than 7 hours of sleep everyday....damn the engorgement and the pumping.

On a happier note, kyan has been progressing well in his development. He is learning and trying to flip already, about 70% i would say. And my, he is starting to drop hair (lots even)....his front is already bald!

I decide to shave him when he reaches the fourth month.

Now he is saying ah-geng to us....he is very playful now, sometimes naughty too. Even during feeding time, he loves to play with the teats and do all sorts of things with it but just refusing to drink. And yes, his wails still fill the whole house. Still struggling to feed him with bottle. I'm wondering whats up with his crankiness while drinking...teats problem? Just being naughty? Or not hungry?

I wonder how much breastmilk has been wasted.

In addition, I have donated 18 packets of breastmilk to a mummy who has three kids. Glad to clear the space in my freezer to make way for newer stocks. I guess i may go for a second batch of donation since I still have quite alot of packets. Prefer to give fresher milk to kyan and donate the older stocks.

First Day at Work ~ Breastfeeding Nightmare

2009-06-08T22:39:00.009+08:00

Today is mummy's first day of work after a long maternity leave of 12 weeks...fast eh?

Sighz....mummy feels very sad cos she miss kyan so much! Now that she has to go back to work there is much to get used to.

First is the pumping session. Though the new boss has no objections to pumping during official hours, it is hard and pretty inconvenient to pump as there is no nursing room available. End up pumping in the toilet where there is no place to put my pump accessories.

Secondly is the rush for pumping. In the morning at 6am, wake up to pump (when initially i can wake up at 6.45am). Only can limit myself to a pump time of at most 30mins in the morning and during office hours. During the afternoon, pump another time using the manual pump. Siong, rush by trying to empty my breasts as much as possible only to realise they are not fully empty and get engorged five hours later. I try to avoid pumping twice at work so will bear till I reach home at 6.30pm to pump for the next session. The last pump session will probably be around 11pm, which means I can't sleep early cos i'll have to wait for the session. If pump too early will face very bad engorgement in the middle of the night and still have to wake up to pump.

In conclusion, breastfeeding is pretty more a chore but i'm still persisting. This was what i posted on the motherhood board after i felt pretty down in the office. Yes i was already suffering from engorgement at that time but was bearing not to pump till i reach home.

"i think we mummies are just feeling v drained out cos of bf-ing...now i am also thinking if i really cannot cope i may also stop. But do consider carefully and don't look back on yr decision if u have to do so...i do fear the day i will regret hence i don't have the courage to drop my milk flow yet.

I'm also suffering from blocked ducts and the milk flow from my right breast is realli slow now...milk seems to be jammed up in there.

Sometimes i'm wondering why am i making myself so miserable...feeling so drained, tired and yet still doing all these thing...or i should just take the easy way out....feed FM...in fact now i'm already feel like doin that liao...hb oso scared i cannot cope with pumping at work and not getting enough sleep at night since gotta wake up early to pump. V tiring.

I am now at work. There is no nursing room in my office and i was pumping in the toilet. There is no place to put my pump accessories. Realli feel like crying man.

What to do? silly mummy still thinking to continue but yet feel like giving up. Ironic really."

=D

2009-06-02T13:04:00.003+08:00

I always love to chuckle, talk and smile like this when i see the family portrait on the wall...mummy wonders why?

Personal random shots at two months

2009-05-28T11:52:00.007+08:00

See me smile! =D

Hey mummy...are u looking at me?

Lying comfortably on mummy's shoulder...

Am i cute and chubby?

And one last note....its so hard for daddy and mummy to take photos of me now cos i am too active! I cannot sit still for a minute....hahaha...

Naughty mummy in the works

2009-05-26T21:33:00.004+08:00

Mummy is bullying me! See what she is doing to me...

Well the fact is, mummy can't stand me being so "pinchable" and has to squeeze and pinch me for the fun of it.
Naughty mummy!!

Can babies really see angels?

2009-05-26T21:18:00.008+08:00

I saw this comment made by a mummy on facebook...

"I believe babies can see angels"

Somehow this inspired me to think that this is true...babies smile to themselves, in their sleep , and when they focused so intently upon a spot and then smile widely or even chuckle. It may sound scary. But the imagination does sound very sweet and nice too.

My MIL told me that in some instances where babies smile at a spot or sleeping, its sometimes cos there is this angel playing with them that we can't see. Is it really an angel? I wonder. But if baby is smiling so happily it must be something really good.

But what if it is the other end of the scale? Babies cry means they see devil?

Haha, i hope not!

Anyway kyan loves to chuckle alot now. I just love seeing his smile every day =)

After the jab....

2009-05-19T11:19:00.004+08:00

Poor baby suddenly screamed and cried so loudly in the middle of the night, on top of it he has been making alot of sounds like cries which seem to suggest he was trumatised (to mummy that is)....guess its due to the after effects of the horrible jab?! Sighz...

I'm thinking whether to let kyan take the pneumoccocal jab too...really heartpain to see him get poked so many times but what to do? sighz...

Anyway thank goodness this morning he was happily "talking", making coo-coo sounds and playing with his mobile friends after his bath when we put him back in the cot.....listen to his loud shout at the end....hehe...

First Dose of 6-in-1

2009-05-18T17:07:00.003+08:00

Kyan has hit the two month mark yesterday...and so was the time to take his first dose of 6-in-1 jab today.

With that and the oral rotavirus vaccination which we opted to take at Kidslink was enough for Kyan's cries to fill the whole clinic...poor boy cried so badly till he really teared. No joke. This time it was real. My mum always said naughty boy fakes his cries just to gain attention since no tears were seen. But this time round it did. And yeah, sometimes he really cried really hard with tears spotted in his eyes.

Now mummy is getting paranoid as she is checking him every now and then using the thermometer just to monitor whether he has fever from the jab. Hope not....geez....

He now weighs only 4.8kg...which i thought was pretty light...but Dr Vanessa Tan says he is doing good since he is already a lighter weight baby when he was born...comparing to himself, he has gained about 1.2kg per month since the last check. The normal weighing scale should be a gain of 500g to 1kg per month. Hence kyan is definitely doing well.

And yea, we notice little kyan smiling and making those cute baby sounds more these few days...really melt our hearts just to see him smile. Its really cute....and he seems to know how to "talk" and respond to us (with his baby language of cos)...

I'm sure he will start to toss and turn few weeks more to come. And oh, mummy is going back to work in less than a month's time. She will miss kyan very much....but is comforted to know that he will be in good hands as he's taken care of by granny. Little kyan better not bully granny or mummy/daddy will spank your buttocks =P

The birth of little Nigel

2009-05-08T21:32:00.003+08:00

Kyan's godmummy, Joanna gave birth to my godson, little Nigel today! At long last! It has been a long and difficult wait for her...and that she has been counting and looking forward to this day since it has not been an easy pregnancy for her.

Well done Jo! And all the best as you reach the next stage....moo-moo career! We shall encourage each other on the path onwards.....motherhood is a loooooooooooonnnnnnggggggg way...jia you to us!

2009-05-06T19:01:00.005+08:00

A smile a day chases the blues away!
Grandma was talking and playing with me, so i responded with my own baby language and a wonderful bright smile.... =D =D :-D :-D

Hope i put a smile on everyone else's faces too =D

And may i have a lollipop pretty please? *tock tock tock*...instead of people "tocking" to play with me i shall do the job first.... just cos i'm smart! :P

I wanna turn right...and left...and back....and forth...

2009-05-02T21:13:00.011+08:00

Look mummy! I can lift my head up now....or at least trying to...mummy still holds on to my head as i do so for fear that my head is not stable yet. But in fact i'm pretty strong now...mummy had to put in extra effort to hold me well.

Here mummy is trying to burp me by placing my head over her shoulder. But i didn't give her an easy job cos i want to lift my head and refused to let her do so. See! I am currently 6 weeks old but i can lift my head le! I'm so proud of myself...tee hee...

Mummy, i wanna turn to my left!

The Pumping Super Shields

2009-04-29T12:03:00.007+08:00

I just received my Pumpin' Pal Super Shields which i ordered online from MumsFairy! Ok, they are pretty cool cos they allowed me to lean back while pumping, thereby able to alleviate my shoulder pains and aches...besides they also lessen milk drips. Basically its still better than the traditional funnels.
I was thinking of getting the handsfree too, but i guess don't waste $$$ lor....since i don't mind holding onto the pumps...I gotten quite used to multi-tasking on the comp + pumping simultaneously.

HAHA.

Trying to lift his head up high...growth spurt?

2009-04-29T11:07:00.009+08:00

Poor mummy is suffering from back aches and shoulder pains lately....wonder if its due to the effects of epidural, from carrying little one too much or having to bend forward when pumping/breastfeeding. I guess its due to a combination of these reasons.

Little boy is now attempting to lift up his head. And succeeded a few times in turning his head from one side to the other side. We had to start making sure he doesn't bury his face flat or compress his nose against the mattress, since we made him sleep on his stomach a few times during the day. The times when we had to burp him, he was attempting to straighten his body like wanting to stand up and pushed his head back wanting to lift it up...talk about learning to run before even learning to walk! Kids learn fast don't they...

I managed to capture my naughty boy in one of his fussed up moods. I was playing with him in his baby cot but apparently it didn't last that long before he became cranky and started to fling his hands and legs all over the place...I guess he's in his growth spurt now, becoming fussier and kept wanting to drink more during this period of time.

Worst Nightmare.....Ever....

2009-04-27T10:27:00.002+08:00

Little one has been getting naughtier each day! He simply just depletes our energy levels....fast.

Brought him to my mum's place to stay overnight during the weekends for the first time. OMG, he gave us hell in the middle of the night. He was extremely cranky and kept us awake for a record time of four hours+ straight (kun and i didn't sleep a wink from 1am till 5am due to kyan's bad cries). We tried different methods to soothe him like giving him milk, be it through bottle or breast (which he vomitted thereby staining his clothes), we thought he was hungry since he was moving his mouth but no idea why he still puke out after we burped him...and it just seems like he's forever hungry so we fed him again and again...one hand scared of overfeeding him yet don't understand why he still kept making the sucking movement with his mouth after his feeds....changed his diapers, burped him, pat him, carried him....it was just frustrating when he kept crying and refused to sleep....it just didn't help when both of us have no idea what he was crying about. I need a baby cry reader *sighz*

And the worse thing is, i get bad-tempered when i have lack of sleep...therefore i just scolded kyan for being such a naughty boy.

I really miss the times where i can have peaceful nights.

Juggling with breastfeeding issues

2009-04-21T11:53:00.009+08:00

For the past few nights since the CL left, i have been doing total breastfeeding (TBF) at night...ever since then Kyan has been on total breastmilk (BM) daily. Sometimes i wonder whether it will be difficult to switch him to formula next time, and how long more can i persevere in pumping breastmilk and breastfeeding since it is so energy consuming and i have thoughts of giving it up sometimes. And the thought of going out and suffering from engorgement 6 hours later is terrible to me. How to deal with the "problematic" breasts outside when i have no pump and no place to express? So troublesome having to pump outside. Sian lor.

The plentiful stocks in the freezer is another headache. I have plans to donate or even sell it (HAHA). Really don't know what to do with them since my supply is now an average 200ml+ which is way over what Kyan is drinking (100ml each time). I know i can keep the stocks so next time when i go back to work my MIL still have the supply to feed Kyan, but i'll still be pumping at work anyway....so it just keeps on adding. Besides how to clear away the older stocks? sighz...

I guess too little milk got problem, too much milk also got problem!

Donating beats to throwing the milk away. However Kun is afraid if we donate, there might be a risk where the receiver's baby encounter problems after drinking it, which explains why he rather throw it away. But i don't want to throw my precious milk away! How how? Sigh...

Night Experience

2009-04-19T10:05:00.008+08:00

It was my virgin experience taking care of kyan for the past two nights, and its just the beginning! At least it was kun and me in it together. I guess "practice" makes perfect.

The first night - Kyan had his feed at 11plus/ 12plus midnight and then the next feed was at about 1am+ in the morning. I latched him for about 45mins or so till my shoulders ache. But nevertheless, he fell asleep and slept all the way till 7am in the morning~ Amazing! I woke up a few times though to check if he was alright. I guess i was just being rather paranoid and anxious since it was my first night taking care of him. And hearing him make those noises didn't help much either :-/

The second night - My breasts turn hard but i was still deciding whether to pump out as i was waiting for kyan to wail so i can latch him on. But i think better not since i don't want to end up with a bad engorgement...So i woke up to pump. It was about 1.50am in the morning. At 2plus midnight, kyan started to fidget and open his eyes thereafter. He wants milk since his mouth kept moving. I was pumping when he wanted milk, so i latched him and stopped my pumping, hoping there is enough milk left for him in my breasts. He suckled hard and caused my nipple to be really sore and painful. I wanted to latch him all the way till he has had enough but i couldn't bear the pain. Kun and i had to give him two EBM bottle feeds of 30ml each. He still opened his eyes wide refusing to sleep! Put him back in his cot and he started to become restless wanting to cry again. So we had to pat pat and carry him (afraid he will cry out loud and disturb my PILs sleeping) but he still doesn't want to close his eyes and was still quite cranky and restless. I made the last decision to make him suckle on my nipple again and go to bed since his mouth was still making the suckling movement. It was painful but i was bearing with it. Finally he slept at 4am+.

End of confinement....official one month old

2009-04-17T10:16:00.010+08:00

Today is the day where i will need to take care of little one....by myself....with kun, with my mil....yes today marks the end of my confinement...my confinement nanny is leaving this afternoon.

How fast. One month ago Kyan was fresh out of my womb, crying at the top of his lungs when he was out. As quoted by Dr Heng, "small baby with a big voice..." Today, he is officially one month old....and this one month period since birth marks a few changes for him, knowing how to look and stare at us like as if he knows what we talking to him, knowing this is mummy...and this is daddy....knowing how to bully us! (by wailing out loud knowing someone will go to him eventually), crying to seek attention and wanting us to carry him....and not forgetting the few pounds he has put on since birth (as mummy can feel little one's getting heavier each time she carries him when breastfeeding).

Breastfeeding has also been a tough issue. Though i am fortunate enough not to worry about the issue of milk supply, it has been something which i have to motivate myself to do...A simple example will be having to wake up in the middle of the night to pump milk...i am someone who is too lazy to do that! But this time i am forced to....if not my breasts are so engorged and painful....engorgement or pump milk? I choose.

I am contemplating whether to latch little one in the middle of the night or pump milk. Though latching on is easier, its usually more energy consuming perhaps, having to stay awake for one full hour breastfeeding kyan while he may end up falling asleep in between, and the best part is, he may not be fully satisfied and will cry for milk shortly after (in such case i will end up waking so many times)....in comparison to pumping out milk...at least i know i can sleep once my duty is done...but i still have to sterilize bottles, warm up expressed breast milk (EBM), feed kyan....in the end, the time taken for both may be the same....and comparing both alternatives, latching on is definitely better than EBM. The milk is fresher, uncontaminated, baby is more attached to me and i get to bond with baby more. It may be a case where i still have to pump after latch on too, just to empty my breasts. As night time usually yields more milk than in the day and so breasts get easily engorged too. Now it is possible to pump up till 280ml in the night for one pump session...wonder whether i will reach 300ml?

Kyan loves to be cuddled and pat pat. And its tiring me out...or rather all of us...just like now when i'm carrying him in my arms.

Kyan's first month celebration!

2009-04-13T17:36:00.015+08:00

It was kyan's full month celebration yesterday. Relatives and a few friends came and showered with lots of pressies for little one. It was nothing fanciful though, just a simple buffet lunch/dinner at home. Kyan was given a little trim in the morning....nono, he was not shave bald :P

Thereafter. we headed to my mum's place just for a short while before coming back again. Kyan wore a blue outfit which was bought by my mum....

Kyan says..."I surrender!" haha....

Special Thanks to...

My mum for a set of lovely clothings and winnie-the-pooh anklet for kyan
My fil for sponsoring $2k!
My pils for arranging and hosting everything in order
My sister for the gym playset
My grandma for the lovely angbao and gold anklet

All our lovely aunts and uncles for the gold pendant, pressies and ang baos!
My cousins, wilson and anson for the moo moo cow! Kun's cousins, jialing, jiamin and family for the rocker and clothings! All our lovely cousins for your presence!

And not forgetting my own friends...
joanna, deanna, binly, shawn, skye and eric for the combi baby carrier and visiting me in the hospital...meiying for the musical strepper toy... lynn, karen, jenner, vivien, shirleen, kate, khee shin for the special homevisit and ang baos...maureen for the special gift and home visit...and my colleagues, hui shan, michelle, leshane and christine who came to visit me in the hospital...shu min for the lovely ang bao...kate for the Pigeon sterilizer... jack and susie for the avent warmer... alan for the lucky baby warmer... junjie for the gift set...weixin and lydia for the cute adidas shoe...kun's NS buddies, wilson, nick and guo hui for coming + gifts...stacia and cheryl who will be coming to visit me on the 30th....and not forgetting all who send me their warm wishes...thanks all! *muackx*

My Closest People....

2009-04-13T17:24:00.006+08:00

These are people who are closest to me *other than my own mummy of course* :P

This is my daddy...but i'm more interested to look elsewhere.....outta the window perhaps...

Daddy, do you think you can put me straight please? I can't face the camera properly...

This is my granny! She will be taking care of me wholly once mummy returns back to work....

Its bathing time!

2009-04-13T17:06:00.012+08:00

Its bathing time~!
WARNING - Parental guidance needed. Do not scroll down further if you are under the age of 18 *ahem*

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Look! I'm swimming.....in the red 'ol bathtub....mummy grasp me tight pls....don't let me fall....*clings onto mummy's hand for dear life*

First BCG jab at Sengkang Polyclinic

2009-04-09T12:47:00.003+08:00

Kyan has his first BCG jab today. The Hep B jab was not administered as we are planning to take up the 6-in-1 package with Dr Vanessa Tan.

A blood test was done in the morning to make sure kyan's jaundice was perfectly ok. No problem. But it was during the BCG jab that poor baby was crying so loudly....mummy see liao heartpain, moreover she was alone in the room with the two nurses who did the jab for kyan. Kun and the confinement lady was asked to wait outside...they could hear the loud cry which rang from inside the room. Kyan's head and hand was held tight by the nurses since he should not fidget or move during the jab. Poor boy.

Mummy and the nurse cuddled me to soothe me, i was eventually able to settle down until on the second time when we were asked to go back the same room 15 mins later to check if i was ok after the jab. The nurse dabbed on my "wounded" area and i cried....mummy cuddled me again.

Now mummy can finally take her worries of the first jab. Hope she and me will be strong enough to see through the series of jabs in future. As quoted by mummy ever since i was in her womb..."kyan must be a strong and brave boy ya...."

First PD visit at Kidslink

2009-04-06T13:40:00.003+08:00

My poor baby is having cough, phlegm in his throat and abit of blocked nose since Sat, after we brought him back from the polyclinic.

It seems that it may be a case of bacteria/germs that flew around in the polyclinic itself. Sighz. If this continues, kyan will not be able to take the BCG/Hep B jab on thurs.

I'm so worried sick for him. This morning, we brought him to the PD, Dr Vanessa Tan at Kidslink. This PD is pretty detailed and patient. I shot her a list of questions which she was most willing to answer. She mentioned that babies will have whizzing sound when they breathe/drink milk, due to their small nostrils. I can continue to breastfeed him, there is no concern of breastmilk issue, except that i shouldn't be taking herbal and caffeine stuffs. I was confused since i thought i am supposed to take herbal during confinement and the PD tells me shouldn't. I asked her why and she mentioned whatever i take will go to the baby, medically speaking, doctors do not encourage the take on herbal stuffs. For Dr Vanessa's case, she went on a normal diet and did not take herbal stuffs. I'm so in a dilemma....thought we are supposed to "bu" during confinement.

I was given nose drops and cough medicine for Kyan. Only if he coughs at least five times a day then i can give him the cough medicine. The PD said kyan has only a bit of blocked nose, not running nose.

Anyway the nurse explained to be about the 5-in-1 and 6-in-1 jab. I am deciding which one to administer for Kyan. Haiz. I guess as long as the day he hasn't take his first jab, my worry will never be gone.

I'm so stressed out over his health and everything. Somehow i miss the time when everything was just "me" alone and that i didn't have to shoulder such a huge responsibility like being accountable for someone's health. It is very frightening and worrisome being a mother. Why am i such a worry freak...sighz. I guess i am still trying to adjust to this new lifestyle. Now that i'm a mum myself, i really appreciate what my own parents have done for me, and that what they have to go through bringing me up. Its really tough. Salute to parents, especially mummies.

Happy 11th year Anniversary

2009-03-28T13:30:00.010+08:00

Kyan refused to latch on my right nipple since its way much bigger than my left one. His hands will become very stiff and its difficult to latch him since the hands are blocking his way to my nipple. Tried moving his hands but its hard. To make things worse, he will wail and cry loudly when he couldn't latch....

Just couldn't help but burst into tears yesterday, and told kun to bring him out to feed EBM through bottle instead. The feeling is equivalent to a mum who doesn't seem able to give her bb milk. Sighz...i wonder how long i can persevere.

On a brighter note, today is my 11th year anniversary with kun. I am in guilt cos it slipped my mind (too preoccupied liao)....no fancy celebrations though, since i'm still in confinement...i guess the joy comes from celebrating little one's 12th day old today.

"Happy 11th year Anniversary Daddy and Mummy ^_^"

Breastfeeding and post-natal massage

2009-03-27T17:37:00.003+08:00

Its my 4th session of postnatal massage today. Pretty good as it actually "pushes" out all the lochia, alleviates my breast engorgement and helps to flatten up my tummy. When Cathy (the massage lady) massaged my back, so shiok that i can fall asleep...hehe....but when she did so on my tum tum, its quite painful but still bearable. She is trying to push all the air out as well. I will e doing a one week session. So far progress has been good. My breasts were less engorged (thereby able to pump out more milk), more dirty blood is out plus the fact that it speeds up my tum tum to my pre-pregnancy state.....how nice....

Breastfeeding is hard. Kyan will struggle and gets impatient when he couldn't latch on my nipple properly. He will also shake his head vigorously and wailed out loud when he couldn't take it anymore....tough business.

I am trying to latch and pump so that my milk supply can increase. Till now my record is 170ml for a single pump session. Not too bad for a week old. Just that pumping can tire me out as i have to do so every 3 to 4 hours. And i have to wake up in the middle of the night to pump too....so tiring! Not to mention the "heavy" breasts every two hourly. So tired. I wonder how long i can persist in breastfeeding seriously.

Mummy in her 38th week

2009-03-24T20:10:00.006+08:00

Just some photos of mummy in her 38th week before i came out (yes i popped out two days after =P)

Registration of my birth certificate

2009-03-23T19:55:00.004+08:00

I am proven a singapore citizen today =) yes! daddy has registered my birth certificate :) my full name is boon fu jun, kyan.

Daddy and my grandma sent me for a check up at the PD this morning. So angry with the PD. She was so rough with me when she was taking out the "clip" on my umbilical cord....she was careless and scratched me and my skin on my leg peeled off that i cried loudly in pain. Mummy was so heartpain hearing that even though she wasn't there and cursed the PD when Daddy told her the story. Daddy and Grandma thought how come i cried out so loudly when I didn't cry at all when this stupid PD drew out two tubes of blood from me. So that was it.

Lucky my jaundice level is ok - 185. The clinic called and say if its above 240, have to admit to the hospital...i have to be "sunned" for the next two days.

My next check up at the PD will be on 6-April. I will be taking my first jab then. I couldn't take it initially since i haven't reach the 2.5kg mark yet. But even though now i have reached 2.54kg i still couldn't take the jab as i was tested for jaundice.

As for the hole in my heart, the scan on sat showed no serious cause for concern, except that i have to be monitored carefully. This hole is what caused the wheezing sound when i breathe.I have to go for another scan in four months time, which mummy thought it was long =_____=

Four Days Old!

2009-03-20T10:09:00.001+08:00

I am four days old today! I was opening my eyes pretty alert yesterday so daddy quickly grabbed a camera and snapped some photos of me....

Most of the times when mummy was trying hard to breastfeed me, i am always closing my eyes and sleeping....mummy loves to call me sleepyhead, she thinks i resembles her (like to sleep)....just like what i'm doing now...

Birth Story

2009-03-17T12:48:00.001+08:00

17-Mar-2009

7.30am - Reported to ESH for admission.

8.10am - Was being led to labour ward. Changed into hospital gown and was given the medication to go and poo. Wah, i tried to poo out everything i could but seems like still cannot. I had to try for it the second time. The nurse asked me not to force myself :P i scared i poo during labour la! She then put the CTG device on me to monitor the contractions and bb's heartbeat. After that, i had breakfast but didn't finish everything yet before Dr Heng burst into my labour room and said she couldn't wait for me to finish eating and had to administer something on me first.

9.15am - Was put on drip. Dr Heng burst my waterbag....wah hot water just gushed out of me like a hot fountain. Surprisingly, it was still not so painful (i thought bursting of waterbag will trigger contractions but ok la). Dr Heng did VE on me. Still 3cm dilation so no improvement since the day before. 3 tubes of blood were drawn out from me. The nurse also inserted a pad for me.

9.35am - Hmm i continued to have breakfast :P while waiting for the contractions.

10am+ - The nurse gave me gas and taught me how to breathe using that. Contractions were still minimal and bearable at this point. Pain threshold : 2 out of a 10. Like menses cramps but still can bear.

10.15am - Contractions getting more intense now. Tried to use the gas to breathe but it was quite hard. Ok maybe can help only a bit. Watched tv and see if i can distract myself from the contractions. I tried to distract myself from the pain. At the same time, kun was asking me some nonsensical stuffs i just told him off...Not much mood to joke with him . Tried taking the mask to breathe but then it doesn't seem to help much liao....

10.35am - Contractions come every 2 to 3mins interval. I asked the nurse when do i need to ask for epi...she said if i cannot tahan better ask for it now, what for wait and suffer so much pain later. In addition, she said i had to remain still for 20mins while the epidural is administered so i also cannot wait till i cannot tahan the pain. Wait fidget here and there how? Finally i raised the white flag...EPIDURAL please!

11.25am - Had to wait for the epidural-ist to come in. Wah cannot tahan v pain liao. Epi faster come! In the end, the doctor came in and while waiting for him to get ready, i grabbed hold of the bed railings....and then cried to the nurse....v pain...v pain cannot tahan....(with tears) so i guess this is the point of my pain threshold...the nurse consoled me and said it'll be all over soon. The doctor inserted the epidural into me and i felt quite pain... i can feel the cold liquid through my spinal cord immediately but still can feel the contractions as the epidural took some time to take effect....

12.15am - Hmm finally the pains got abit lesser. Managed to take a few pics. I asked the nurse..."how many cm dilation already?" she checked and said....now its 8 to 9cm dilation. Hmm...i was happy to hear that....so fast? Good! It'll be all over soon.

12.30am - Dr Heng came in. Asked me to deliver first before she popped into the other labour ward (since i was dilating faster). Gave me the go-ahead to start pushing. Asked me to PUSH PUSH PUSH don't let bb's head sink back!!! Ok PUSH!! I tried my very best and might to push while having to take deep breaths between the pushes. Dr Heng even "threatened" and say..."bb's heartbeat dropped le! Must be quick!" Wah....scared me man....i pushed hard and two nurses pushed my tum tum on the right and left while Dr Heng was in front. Kun also kept telling me to jia you. And with like 6 pushes, baby is out. He weighs 2.435kg and measured 47cm. Wah FINALLY!!! Hello my dear boy!!!

My "xiao ke ai" when he's out...

Sneaking a peak into this BIG BIG world...Hello Mummy and Daddy!!

My first time carrying my boy

My days in the hospital

The final gynae appointment before labour

2009-03-16T12:31:00.001+08:00

16-Mar-2009

3.30pm - Gynae appointment at Dr Heng's clinic. Dr Heng did the usual scan and commented that bb's weight still remains at 2.4kg+ at 38weeks+ and that bb's head is very low that she cannot see it now, and gave me the option of deliver or wait. I gave the go-ahead for the first option, since i felt that it will be safer and better to deliver him out to feed him rather than staying in my womb. Dr Heng performed VE on me. 3cm dilation already. She told me to admit to hospital the next day at 7.30am.

4+pm to 5.45pm - Felt pain and cramps. Went to the toilet to check and realise there is blood!! Now i know why Dr Heng didn't want to perform VE on me earlier, cos it will really trigger bleeding for my case. Called the clinic up and asked if i needed to be admitted to the hospital immediately. The nurse told me if not so painful still can wait, if the cramps get more intense then admit to the hospital earlier.

6+pm - Travelled home by bus with my MIL. Pains are bearable and seem to be getting better than earlier. So i decided to stay home and monitor the condition.

Throughout midnight, i couldn't sleep well, due to a mixture of feelings of having to go through labour the next day. Hmm....no labour symptoms in the middle of the night, jus continued to spot but it was not painful. I guess it was just the choice that i have to be induced the next day.

Gynae Appointment at 37weeks

2009-03-10T15:10:00.003+08:00

Did the CTG scan yesterday. Little one was sleeping for about 20mins before the nurse came in and told me she had to shake my tummy (the result slip showed a constant line and i felt no movements from ah boy)...and she shook it hard which woke ah boy up. He started to move and kick and the lines went up and down after that...lol....i guess he mus have been thinking..."oei! wake me up from sleep for what?!"

Dr Heng told me the CTG result is normal, and that bb's heartbeat was ok. I also presume that my contractions were normal, otherwise none. I guess the CTG doesn't deduce whether i have dilations anot, and this has to be done via a vaginal examination, or what is termed as short...a VE. Dr Heng said she will do a VE for me during the next appointment, which is this coming monday (16-Mar). As of now, she doesn't want to do it for fear of triggling contractions or labour i guess. Little one is now 2.4kg+ at 37weeks+, which i read from babycenter that he is on the smaller side...i am a bit worried as i read that babies may come out smaller than they usually read on the scan...i hope he is ok though. If there is not much improvement in his growth or weight gain, i may have to be induced next week. Upon hearing that, kun displayed a shocking expression on his face (...eh....induce?! labour next week....so fast?!) oh well he said he isn't sure if Dr Heng noticed his shocked expression. Though he has been telling everyone "anytime" when ppl asked when i'm delivering, i guess he still hasn't gotten himself that prepared it may be just next week...and he has to accept the fact now that the words came from the gynae's mouth.

Dr Heng was pretty preoccupied as her handphone died on her and she told us she was having four patients in the labour wards as at that moment, so she might have to rush down to ESH anytime. I guess this caused her to overlook giving us the scan of little one. I didn't ask her for it though.

My EDD is now 25-Mar as stated rather than 27-Mar. I always thought it was 27-Mar, anyway just a matter of 2 days so shouldn't be a cause for concern. I realised that as Dr Heng indicated 25-Mar on the edd slip i requested from her to be submitted to my company for the application of my maternity leave.

Ok boy, mamee and u shall both jiayou and look towards the day when we shall finally see each other....

A Happy Milestone

2009-03-07T12:36:00.007+08:00

"Congrats to my little darling for reaching 37weeks!! My dear boy, u are now considered full term and ready to meet the world anytime....

Mummy is so eager and waiting to see u..."

Lotsa

Mamee

Approaching the end of the road....

2009-03-03T13:46:00.010+08:00

With just a mere three days ahead, i will hit 37weeks. Fast?

I am trying to tell myself to enjoy the last moments of this pregnancy. This pregnancy has given me alot of ups and downs. Looking back i'm glad i've made this far.

Ah boy's movements and kicks have become my little reminder that he's doing well inside. He's grown into a stronger boy day by day, and i'm glad that this is so.

Last monday (23/2), i had a check with Dr Heng, who told me to stop my ventolin once i reach 37weeks, as it is safe to deliver anytime from then on. Little one is 2.212kg at 35weeks+. Dr Heng assured me things are going on fine as there will still be a couple of weeks left for ah boy to reach at least 2.5kg upon delivery. 300g within the next four weeks? no problem la =) Little one is still head down and engaged. No problem for natural delivery...Dr Heng says. Gained another 2 to 3kg+ since the last visit. I even asked her what number should i call if i believe i'm giving birth soon. She said no need to call, jus go to the hospital immediately (haha). Next appointment is this coming mon (9/3) where i will do my CTG as well. Will cost me $50.

Finally managed to settle the SCBB issue. Met up with the representative called Sabariah last wed at Raffles Hospital foodcourt and signed all the documentation. It was a rush lunch hour for me though. I didn't manage to settle my lunch within that hour. Had to rush to Delifrance to grab the tuna sandwich.

Got my cadi 4-in-a thermometer from the expo bb fair and the comfort pillow from the kidzloft warehouse sale(thanks jo). The comfort pillow is pretty useful as it helps me sleep better, cos really have a hard time falling asleep these days as tum tum grows bigger.

My water retention is really bad now. Bad swelling of the feet. Worse than ever. I find i could hardly walk sometimes too. My feet looks exactly like pig throttles.

So sian....just counting down to my ML only. 8 more working days and i'm off to a 3months straight ML. Wonder when is the day ah boy will pop?

Encounter with SCBB

2009-02-20T09:12:00.008+08:00

I dread coming to work these days, cos i just find it so difficult to drag myself out of bed every morning.
TGIF. Each week seems to pass by relatively fast.

I've been counting down to my delivery everyday liao. I just hit w35 today. 3 more weeks and i may give birth!

Was pissed off with the SCBB agent i spoke few days ago. She initially offered to send someone down to Dr Heng's clinic on the 23rd (which is my next appointment) to meet for the consenting process and for the biological questionnaire but told me later she wouldn't be able to do so as official hours are over and they cannot do consenting. She requested kun and me to go down to KKH itself instead on a Saturday morning instead. So i told her i need to ask my husband and we agreed to get in touch again the following Monday.

I checked with kun and he said he would not go to KKH as since we are the ones donating the cordblood, the representative should be accomodating us and not the other way round, which i find it logical too. Can't they meet somewhere else more convenient and suited to our schedule better? He felt the representative is selfish and inconsiderate to make a preggie travel to the hospital itself. Well i find it logical again.

I called the agent up and expected her to accomodate to our request...but NO. She told me that she has difficulty sending someone to meet me at the clinic as its so late. WTH, initially i don't even want to meet her at the clinic lor! (since my gynae appointment is at 7.05pm and she wanted to meet at 6.15pm, so we decided to "sacrifice " our dinner time to meet up with her...) she won't want to budge to accomodate us this time round, and told me there are other preggies travelling down to the hospital itself too when i asked her whether there are such cases. I told her my hubby sometimes has to do shift work on a Saturday hoping she understands and i told her i am being put in a difficult position (in my mind cos kun don't want us to travel to KKH and this stupid lady won't even budge) and u know what she said? "if its so troublesome, then its ok". WTH. So customer-oriented ah?! *note the sarcaism* Just because i'm donating and not paying to store the cordblood doesn't warrant her to give me that sort of crappy attitude right?!

So i decided to email again to the lady whom i voiced my interest in donation, saying i want to change the nurse-co-ordinator aka the agent. This is what i wrote.

Dear Sherrie

I've spoken to one of your nurse coordinators, Isabel but we have issues with regards to arranging the time and place to meet.
I wonder if its possible to send a nurse coordinator who might be able to meet outside official hours and a place which is more convenient (like my gynae's clinic) rather than having us to travel to KKH on a Saturday morning which we were asked to do so, since it can be rather inconvenient and troublesome especially now with my pregnancy related issues. I also do heard of other agents being able to travel to meet their clients.
Isabel said if its too troublesome its all right (which i'm interpreting her message that we can drop the idea of donating if we are not able to accede to her request of making our way to KKH itself).
I hope you can assist and accomodate to our requests. If it is not possible, I do thank you for your fast responses and assistance towards my queries.
Would look forward to your response. Many thanks.

And so the reply came in:

Hi Fianna
Thank you for your feedback.
We would like to assure you that every cord blood donor is important to the SCBB. We sincerely appreciate your feedback and would look into the issues highlighted.
The Collections Manager is currently not available and I would discuss this issue with her. We hope to be able to revert with a favourable reply by the end of the week.
If there are any other queries or need for clarification, please do not hesitate to contact us.

I'm still waiting for their reply. No news yet. Heng i still can afford to wait lor. Imagine i'm now in w36 already. By the time they get back to me, i might have already deliver.

Ok off the SCBB issue. I've been facing frequent BH contractions and "menstrual cramps" these days. Just hope they are false labour symptoms! Aiyo getting v nervous liao...I've decided to take my maternity leave from w38 onwards, which is the week starting 16-Mar. Little one is growing bigger and stronger each day, with his stretch and kicks whcih sometimes cause a lump in my tum tum. Even can feel that my right tummy weight seems to be heavier than the left and like a bit lopsided, probably cos of his butt (felt something rounded...hehe!) Can't wait to see him!

Tired + terrible backaches

2009-02-12T13:42:00.005+08:00

My baby cot, stroller, bedding set and musical mobile arrived yesterday afternoon.

MIL commented that the cot is big...which kun and i felt so too, after having placed it in my SIL's room (baby will be sleeping in there with the CL). Though its kinda big, we all love the cot. MIL even commented she loves the cot more and more after seeing it.

Good lor, like wat kun says, our boy has a bigger playground =P

I've took a day unpaid leave for rest today, cos my back is in terrible pain since yesterday. It has been practically killing me when i walk, get out of bed or stand up from a chair. This morning wanted to go to work but its still painful, coupled with the fact i'm feeling v tired. Nowadays no matter how much i sleep, the tiredness doesn't seem to go away, so actually i'm also having headaches as well. In addition, i was having "menstrual cramps" yesterday. I was afraid so i took one zendolin pill.

Kun and i have decided to donate our boy's cordblood rather than to keep it, reason being the chances of him being able to use back his own cordblood (*touch wood* hope not) is almost close to nil, since the genetic disorder is already present. Might as well donate to a pool and save lives. Good also, can earn good karma for kyan. Will be meeting the SCBB agent at Dr Heng's clinic on the 23rd.

More and more mummies at singaporemotherhood are popping one by one le...when will it be my turn? I'm so scared, nervous and excited. It seems so far, all the march mummies who popped now deliver premature babies, so chances could be quite high. I just hope to deliver kyan after 38weeks *prays*...kyan must be good boy ok, guai guai stay inside till its time *sayang*...really don't want to induce or deliver prematurely.

I'll be hitting 34weeks tomorrow, just doing countdown everyday. I've decided to take my maternity leave two weeks earlier prior to EDD. Hope my boss allows this arrangement. Should be ok la.

Shopping at Giant

2009-02-05T22:33:00.003+08:00

Went to Giant@Tampines and got the following stuffs:

1) Home slippers for confinement ($1.99)
2) Pureen Madame Maternity Pad 20s ($6.95)
3) Cotton Buds 5pk 160s ($1.17)
4) 4 pieces of Eternity nursing bras (Total: $48.57) - worth it!
5) Drapolene Nappy Rash Cream ($4.30)

So i'm left with disposable panties to be used for confinement, airtight ziplock bags to put bb stuffs to bring to hospital, baby thermometer just to name a few.

Phew....items more or less settled le. Will purchase breast pump probably after delivery cos have to judge milk supply. Intend to purchase milk bags, milk powder and disposable diapers after delivery too.

I really think i have sprained my right leg, so darn pain lor =( had very bad sudden pelvic pains too....

kyan's foot resting on the wall of my tummy makes me feel really uncomfortable...sometimes i try to touch or press gently so he can change position. Will try to avoid and let him be...don't disturb him better...poor boy mus be so cramped up in my tum tum....

Gynae appointment at 32weeks

2009-02-04T22:11:00.004+08:00

I actually expected to see a huge crowd of ppl at the clinic but surprisingly, i was onli the second MTB on the queue (appointment at 7pm but i reached about 6.40pm). Was asked to see Dr Heng immediately after weighing myself and measuring the usual blood pressure.

It seems that i'm getting more and more lost seeing the ultrasound, with absolutely no idea what Dr Heng is scanning or measuring on the screen. What she told me was baby is pretty small for his gestational age at 32weeks+, which makes me quite worried and sad (1.64kg only when bb is supposed to be at least 1.8kg at week32). However, Dr Heng assured me the difference isn't very big and that i don't have to worry so much.

I asked her whether a cervical check is needed as i was afraid of cervix dilation since my V-area was pretty painful these few days. Furthermore i had bad contraction scares on the same evening when i was supposed to see Dr Heng. She did not agree to a cervical check as she was afraid it might induce bleeding since i had a bad case of spotting and bleeding in the 1st trimester. However she gave me the medicine, Zendolin to curb the contractions and prevent early labour. The medicine will cause me shivers and also my heart to beat faster.

The placenta and amniotic levels were ok.

Though glucose test result is normal, i was asked to exercise diet control still.

Hope kyan can put on more fats. I'm determined to drink powdered milk again every night in the hope that he can put on the pounds and be at least 2.5kg upon delivery.

The Discomforts of Pregnancy

2009-01-23T23:15:00.005+08:00

I'm getting more and more tired these days... :-/ sometimes to the point of being breathless...

Just had four leg cramps in a row at the dawn of the night when i was sleeping...was woken up due to the pains....didn't want to wake kun up since he was sleeping so soundly...i tried bearing with it silently, it was just horrible feeling...i wanted to cry...

Felt kyan's movements in my womb pretty painful now...last time it was jabbing sort of itchiness...now with him squirming and moving inside my womb, its painful. His feet seem to be on the top right hand corner of my tummy, as the kicks seem hard there. Sometimes i felt itchiness at the lower region of the pelvic area. I wonder if its kyan's hair? Seems cute.

Now i seem to be counting down to the days of delivery. 31 weeks presently and counting. Somehow i have mixed feelings. I wish kyan will come out sooner so i can see him and also be freed from the discomforts of pregnancy but somehow i wish he will come out later cos thats when i know he is more ready and then its going to be worse for me since i have to spend the sleepless nights taking care of him. Not forgetting...the horrible confinement :-(

I wonder whether i'm walking like a penguin these days. My tum tum feels heavy and i have on and off cramps sometimes which is pretty scary. Just hope my cervix is not dilated *touch wood* I feel bloated too though my appetite is still quite good. But I am facing more of water retention and my face is kinda swollen up. Yucks.

And i realise something too....no matter how much i sleep it never seems to be enough...*sigh* I still feel terribly tired sleeping at 10+ at night and waking up at 6.40am every weekday. Anyway, gone were those days when i can sleep throughout the night without waking up....

Lesson Updates

2009-01-17T12:00:00.004+08:00

My baby cot and stroller will be arriving on 11-Feb...

I am starting to get abit kanchiong as i'm scared to leave out things that i should have buy but not yet gotten....

I better start preparing my hospital bag next month...who knows i may pop earlier? hmm....

Update on Mrs Wong's class - Last week focused on tips and instructions on how to bathe, swaddle, carry and take care of bb.....So much things to take note of...She doesn't recommend powder on bb but kun is still for the idea of using it...We bought the bathing towels and wash cloths from Mrs Wong as the material is good...Thinking of getting the bottom balm cream as Mrs Wong recommended it so we can apply on bb's buttocks to prevent him getting rashes...We were each given a model baby to learn the steps and it was useful.

In our previous lesson, we have watched the different types of delivery video during the last lesson and its very freaky so to speak...why? we saw the bloody scenes like the bb coming out of the mummy's womb and mummy being cut up in a C-Sec birth...my gosh...Kun commented it was worse than a horror movie....

It was funny when we came to the part on C-Sec...Kun said that don't think they will film the mummy's tummy and than the next moment he said..."oh my gosh they realli did film it" and told me not to watch....i had to turn and look at kun for a few times (and manage to catch his funny expressions :P) cos i was simply too nervous and scared to watch the video intensely...

Went for the doctors talk last Tues (13-Feb) at SCGS. Find the first part a waste of time as the speaker was just speaking of what to expect in labour and flashing slides that Mrs Wong has already covered. It was during the second part that was more fresh and applicable - talking of what to expect in newborns, the signs and symptoms to look out for, etc...and the second speaker (who is a pediatrician) is more interesting and amusing too...

The Big 3

2009-01-17T11:43:00.003+08:00

My glucose test result came out to be normal and i'm real thankful for that, at least my guilt conscience of wanting to eat those sinful foods like burgers, fries, chocos, ice-cream (just to name a few) isn't so bad....ok i still better control though...don't want to be a bad mummy :P

I've finally hit the "BIG 3"...which is my 30 weeks of gestation...ppl commented, "so fast hor!" when they know i am going to deliver in Mar which is another two months time. My response will be like..." erm...ya sort of...."But deep down i felt it was slow yet fast indeed....especially slow in my first trimester when problems just weighed a ton on me and i seem to count the weeks that went past till i reach my 2nd trimester...fast in the sense that before i know it, i am going to deliver and see my little darling pretty soon. And from then onwards, I need to carry the heavy responsibilities of being a good mummy taking care of little one, and that sorta scares me...

I haven't really want to give a thought about delivery during the past few months of this pregnancy...but as it draws near, it somehow frightens me to a certain extent. I kept motivating myself that no matter what happens, I'm going to go though it with a positive spirit and deliver my bb safely. I'm going to stay strong to go through delivery...i know i can...

I realli hope to go through natural, just thinking whether i can endure the contraction pains without epidural...I guess i will still be at a crossroad until the delivery itself...i do hope ESH gives me the option of administering the epidural during the delivery rather than deciding beforehand...Somehow C-section also kinda "attracts" me in the sense that its going to be fast and painless (ok i must emphasise here...not pain during delivery cos of asethetics) but recovery stage is slow and painful! I rather take the former choice than...

CNY is coming...lots of goodies to eat! wahhahaha....will tell my bb to guai guai stay inside my womb till he's suppose to come out at 38weeks (so he gets to eat the goodies too)...hehe...

27weeks visit to the Gynae

2009-01-06T13:06:00.002+08:00

Went to Dr Heng's clinic at 11am in the morning....the clinic was as usual, crowded.....As the clinic was closed on New Year's Eve (which was my usual Wed appointment) my appointment had to be pushed three days later on a Sat.
The wait was pretty long too, with a queue of mummies outside to see the gynae. So it was about 45mins wait before i got to see the gynae. I weighed myself and weighing machine flashed a shocking 53kg in my face, which was a 6kg gain from my previous 47kg one month ago. Dr Heng told me there is sugar found in my urine so she took a sample of my blood to test. The reading was higher than the normal range which indicated the high sugar levels in my blood. I had to go for a glucose screening test (GTT) this Fri for a more detailed analysis. If results aren't good, follow-up is needed. Dr Heng's reaction to my whopping 6kg gain was overwhelming like ..."thats alot! what did u eat?! Baby only gained 1kg and u gained the balance of the 5kg!!" I tried to recall the things i indulge myself in and told her like nothing much? :P (ok i was guilty as i managed to recall much later what i've actually eaten these past few weeks...perhaps the chocolates, fast food, ice-creams and candies jus to name a few....cannot blame rite, got the christmas season, new year season...oh well i guess these are just excuses :P but seriously my darling seems to love all these foods...i was never so much a chocolate lover b4 i was pregnant....not only that bb loves western food more than chinese food, like burgers and stuffs like that...i was not much of a fast food lover (exception of KFC and MOS Burger) but prefers chinese food...now this is all happening....)...Dr Heng told me i should eat lesser now, and no more fast food for me...! so sad rite....

The scan showed kyan weighing 1.097kg (rounded to the nearest 1.1kg) at 27weeks+/28weeks. This time round, he faced the screen again and Dr Heng managed to capture his cute little chubby face....i think he is sleeping peacefully with his hand clutched in a fist by the side....his face looked chubbier now...so cute i wanna squeeze his cheeks...still can't distinguish whether he looks more like kun or me, but i know he does have my eyes....

Told Dr Heng about my "menstrual" cramps too...she asked where cos right now i'm not supposed to have any menstrual cramps...i told her they occur below my tum tum...she said as long as they don't occur at the tummy area (where the bb is) but below that its fine....

Haiz...the GTT makes me kinda depressed cos i used to be able to eat anything without much consideration...now gotta cut down on sugary and salty stuffs...good luck to me....

On a offhand note, my mum bought the bean pillow and tongs for the bb....Jo gotten a blue rompers for bb....thanks!!

Major Shopping Spree

2008-12-20T22:22:00.005+08:00

Mummy went to Robinsons and John Little@Somerset with Daddy, Grandma, Third Grandaunt and Uncle today...she finally managed to spent her $150 vouchers which were about to expire end of this month :P A great deal of baby stuffs were bought, specially for me!! With $150 and above spent at Robinsons, there is a free delivery service so the items are going to be delivered to my house this Friday.

Here are the items which were bought:-

1) Baby Liners - 100s
2) Cotton Wool (for wiping my poo poo?!)
3) Baby Detergent Powder (Solely for my clothes...i'm a little VIP!)
4) Liquid Cleanser (Washing Milk Bottles)
5) Baby Powder Twin Pack 250g
6) Baby Wash 2in1
7) Powder Case (x2) (One for the body and one for my butt butt!)
8) Pigeon Milk Bottles 150ML and 250ML
9) Silicon Pacifier (Mummy hopes i won't get to use this :-/ but bought just in case)
10) Towel Set
11) Rubber Sheet
12) Cuff Mittens/Booties
13) Baby Bear Diaper Cover (x2)
14) Baby milk bottles container
15) Baby nail clipper
16) Nappy Pins
17) Milk bottles Brush?! (Is that what to call it?)
18) Clothes for me to wear when i pop and back from hospital

Poor mummy was suffering from bad leg pains and aches during the shopping spree cos she walked and stood for too long. At the shopping centre, she was trying very desperately to find a place to sit cos her legs were so painful! Somerset was so crowded with the swarm of human beings!

Mummy is feeling so excited as the delivery date draws near! I'm actually actively moving and punching in mummy's tummy (I will surely be giving mummy strong karate kicks as i grow bigger)....Mummy has difficulty distinguishing where my head or legs are as my kicks and punches seem to be everywhere unlike previously....she is reaching the 3rd trimester next week! (currently in her 27weeks). Mummy talks to me and tries to sing Twinkle Twinkle Little Star to me every day. She has this feeling she will spoil me rotten when i come out....good or bad?

Mummy's back and the area just below her buttocks hurts frequently now cos my weight is increasingly upon her. She finds it hard to find a good position to sleep as well...and am thinking how she could stand my weight and the influx of problems in the 3rd trimester? Only time could tell....jia you mummy!