Happy 11th year Anniversary

Kyan refused to latch on my right nipple since its way much bigger than my left one. His hands will become very stiff and its difficult to latch him since the hands are blocking his way to my nipple. Tried moving his hands but its hard. To make things worse, he will wail and cry loudly when he couldn't latch....

Just couldn't help but burst into tears yesterday, and told kun to bring him out to feed EBM through bottle instead. The feeling is equivalent to a mum who doesn't seem able to give her bb milk. Sighz...i wonder how long i can persevere.

On a brighter note, today is my 11th year anniversary with kun. I am in guilt cos it slipped my mind (too preoccupied liao)....no fancy celebrations though, since i'm still in confinement...i guess the joy comes from celebrating little one's 12th day old today.

"Happy 11th year Anniversary Daddy and Mummy ^_^"

Breastfeeding and post-natal massage

Its my 4th session of postnatal massage today. Pretty good as it actually "pushes" out all the lochia, alleviates my breast engorgement and helps to flatten up my tummy. When Cathy (the massage lady) massaged my back, so shiok that i can fall asleep...hehe....but when she did so on my tum tum, its quite painful but still bearable. She is trying to push all the air out as well. I will e doing a one week session. So far progress has been good. My breasts were less engorged (thereby able to pump out more milk), more dirty blood is out plus the fact that it speeds up my tum tum to my pre-pregnancy state.....how nice....

Breastfeeding is hard. Kyan will struggle and gets impatient when he couldn't latch on my nipple properly. He will also shake his head vigorously and wailed out loud when he couldn't take it anymore....tough business.

I am trying to latch and pump so that my milk supply can increase. Till now my record is 170ml for a single pump session. Not too bad for a week old. Just that pumping can tire me out as i have to do so every 3 to 4 hours. And i have to wake up in the middle of the night to pump too....so tiring! Not to mention the "heavy" breasts every two hourly. So tired. I wonder how long i can persist in breastfeeding seriously.

Mummy in her 38th week

Just some photos of mummy in her 38th week before i came out (yes i popped out two days after =P)

Registration of my birth certificate

I am proven a singapore citizen today =) yes! daddy has registered my birth certificate :) my full name is boon fu jun, kyan.

Daddy and my grandma sent me for a check up at the PD this morning. So angry with the PD. She was so rough with me when she was taking out the "clip" on my umbilical cord....she was careless and scratched me and my skin on my leg peeled off that i cried loudly in pain. Mummy was so heartpain hearing that even though she wasn't there and cursed the PD when Daddy told her the story. Daddy and Grandma thought how come i cried out so loudly when I didn't cry at all when this stupid PD drew out two tubes of blood from me. So that was it.

Lucky my jaundice level is ok - 185. The clinic called and say if its above 240, have to admit to the hospital...i have to be "sunned" for the next two days.

My next check up at the PD will be on 6-April. I will be taking my first jab then. I couldn't take it initially since i haven't reach the 2.5kg mark yet. But even though now i have reached 2.54kg i still couldn't take the jab as i was tested for jaundice.

As for the hole in my heart, the scan on sat showed no serious cause for concern, except that i have to be monitored carefully. This hole is what caused the wheezing sound when i breathe.I have to go for another scan in four months time, which mummy thought it was long =_____=

Four Days Old!

I am four days old today! I was opening my eyes pretty alert yesterday so daddy quickly grabbed a camera and snapped some photos of me....



Most of the times when mummy was trying hard to breastfeed me, i am always closing my eyes and sleeping....mummy loves to call me sleepyhead, she thinks i resembles her (like to sleep)....just like what i'm doing now...

Birth Story

17-Mar-2009

7.30am - Reported to ESH for admission.

8.10am - Was being led to labour ward. Changed into hospital gown and was given the medication to go and poo. Wah, i tried to poo out everything i could but seems like still cannot. I had to try for it the second time. The nurse asked me not to force myself :P i scared i poo during labour la! She then put the CTG device on me to monitor the contractions and bb's heartbeat. After that, i had breakfast but didn't finish everything yet before Dr Heng burst into my labour room and said she couldn't wait for me to finish eating and had to administer something on me first.

9.15am - Was put on drip. Dr Heng burst my waterbag....wah hot water just gushed out of me like a hot fountain. Surprisingly, it was still not so painful (i thought bursting of waterbag will trigger contractions but ok la). Dr Heng did VE on me. Still 3cm dilation so no improvement since the day before. 3 tubes of blood were drawn out from me. The nurse also inserted a pad for me.

9.35am - Hmm i continued to have breakfast :P while waiting for the contractions.

10am+ - The nurse gave me gas and taught me how to breathe using that. Contractions were still minimal and bearable at this point. Pain threshold : 2 out of a 10. Like menses cramps but still can bear.

10.15am - Contractions getting more intense now. Tried to use the gas to breathe but it was quite hard. Ok maybe can help only a bit. Watched tv and see if i can distract myself from the contractions. I tried to distract myself from the pain. At the same time, kun was asking me some nonsensical stuffs i just told him off...Not much mood to joke with him . Tried taking the mask to breathe but then it doesn't seem to help much liao....

10.35am - Contractions come every 2 to 3mins interval. I asked the nurse when do i need to ask for epi...she said if i cannot tahan better ask for it now, what for wait and suffer so much pain later. In addition, she said i had to remain still for 20mins while the epidural is administered so i also cannot wait till i cannot tahan the pain. Wait fidget here and there how? Finally i raised the white flag...EPIDURAL please!

11.25am - Had to wait for the epidural-ist to come in. Wah cannot tahan v pain liao. Epi faster come! In the end, the doctor came in and while waiting for him to get ready, i grabbed hold of the bed railings....and then cried to the nurse....v pain...v pain cannot tahan....(with tears) so i guess this is the point of my pain threshold...the nurse consoled me and said it'll be all over soon. The doctor inserted the epidural into me and i felt quite pain... i can feel the cold liquid through my spinal cord immediately but still can feel the contractions as the epidural took some time to take effect....

12.15am - Hmm finally the pains got abit lesser. Managed to take a few pics. I asked the nurse..."how many cm dilation already?" she checked and said....now its 8 to 9cm dilation. Hmm...i was happy to hear that....so fast? Good! It'll be all over soon.

12.30am - Dr Heng came in. Asked me to deliver first before she popped into the other labour ward (since i was dilating faster). Gave me the go-ahead to start pushing. Asked me to PUSH PUSH PUSH don't let bb's head sink back!!! Ok PUSH!! I tried my very best and might to push while having to take deep breaths between the pushes. Dr Heng even "threatened" and say..."bb's heartbeat dropped le! Must be quick!" Wah....scared me man....i pushed hard and two nurses pushed my tum tum on the right and left while Dr Heng was in front. Kun also kept telling me to jia you. And with like 6 pushes, baby is out. He weighs 2.435kg and measured 47cm. Wah FINALLY!!! Hello my dear boy!!!

My "xiao ke ai" when he's out...


Sneaking a peak into this BIG BIG world...Hello Mummy and Daddy!!


My first time carrying my boy


My days in the hospital

The final gynae appointment before labour

16-Mar-2009

3.30pm - Gynae appointment at Dr Heng's clinic. Dr Heng did the usual scan and commented that bb's weight still remains at 2.4kg+ at 38weeks+ and that bb's head is very low that she cannot see it now, and gave me the option of deliver or wait. I gave the go-ahead for the first option, since i felt that it will be safer and better to deliver him out to feed him rather than staying in my womb. Dr Heng performed VE on me. 3cm dilation already. She told me to admit to hospital the next day at 7.30am.

4+pm to 5.45pm - Felt pain and cramps. Went to the toilet to check and realise there is blood!! Now i know why Dr Heng didn't want to perform VE on me earlier, cos it will really trigger bleeding for my case. Called the clinic up and asked if i needed to be admitted to the hospital immediately. The nurse told me if not so painful still can wait, if the cramps get more intense then admit to the hospital earlier.

6+pm - Travelled home by bus with my MIL. Pains are bearable and seem to be getting better than earlier. So i decided to stay home and monitor the condition.

Throughout midnight, i couldn't sleep well, due to a mixture of feelings of having to go through labour the next day. Hmm....no labour symptoms in the middle of the night, jus continued to spot but it was not painful. I guess it was just the choice that i have to be induced the next day.

Gynae Appointment at 37weeks

Did the CTG scan yesterday. Little one was sleeping for about 20mins before the nurse came in and told me she had to shake my tummy (the result slip showed a constant line and i felt no movements from ah boy)...and she shook it hard which woke ah boy up. He started to move and kick and the lines went up and down after that...lol....i guess he mus have been thinking..."oei! wake me up from sleep for what?!"

Dr Heng told me the CTG result is normal, and that bb's heartbeat was ok. I also presume that my contractions were normal, otherwise none. I guess the CTG doesn't deduce whether i have dilations anot, and this has to be done via a vaginal examination, or what is termed as short...a VE. Dr Heng said she will do a VE for me during the next appointment, which is this coming monday (16-Mar). As of now, she doesn't want to do it for fear of triggling contractions or labour i guess. Little one is now 2.4kg+ at 37weeks+, which i read from babycenter that he is on the smaller side...i am a bit worried as i read that babies may come out smaller than they usually read on the scan...i hope he is ok though. If there is not much improvement in his growth or weight gain, i may have to be induced next week. Upon hearing that, kun displayed a shocking expression on his face (...eh....induce?! labour next week....so fast?!) oh well he said he isn't sure if Dr Heng noticed his shocked expression. Though he has been telling everyone "anytime" when ppl asked when i'm delivering, i guess he still hasn't gotten himself that prepared it may be just next week...and he has to accept the fact now that the words came from the gynae's mouth.

Dr Heng was pretty preoccupied as her handphone died on her and she told us she was having four patients in the labour wards as at that moment, so she might have to rush down to ESH anytime. I guess this caused her to overlook giving us the scan of little one. I didn't ask her for it though.

My EDD is now 25-Mar as stated rather than 27-Mar. I always thought it was 27-Mar, anyway just a matter of 2 days so shouldn't be a cause for concern. I realised that as Dr Heng indicated 25-Mar on the edd slip i requested from her to be submitted to my company for the application of my maternity leave.

Ok boy, mamee and u shall both jiayou and look towards the day when we shall finally see each other....

A Happy Milestone

"Congrats to my little darling for reaching 37weeks!! My dear boy, u are now considered full term and ready to meet the world anytime....

Mummy is so eager and waiting to see u..."

Lotsa

Mamee

Approaching the end of the road....

With just a mere three days ahead, i will hit 37weeks. Fast?

I am trying to tell myself to enjoy the last moments of this pregnancy. This pregnancy has given me alot of ups and downs. Looking back i'm glad i've made this far.

Ah boy's movements and kicks have become my little reminder that he's doing well inside. He's grown into a stronger boy day by day, and i'm glad that this is so.

Last monday (23/2), i had a check with Dr Heng, who told me to stop my ventolin once i reach 37weeks, as it is safe to deliver anytime from then on. Little one is 2.212kg at 35weeks+. Dr Heng assured me things are going on fine as there will still be a couple of weeks left for ah boy to reach at least 2.5kg upon delivery. 300g within the next four weeks? no problem la =) Little one is still head down and engaged. No problem for natural delivery...Dr Heng says. Gained another 2 to 3kg+ since the last visit. I even asked her what number should i call if i believe i'm giving birth soon. She said no need to call, jus go to the hospital immediately (haha). Next appointment is this coming mon (9/3) where i will do my CTG as well. Will cost me $50.

Finally managed to settle the SCBB issue. Met up with the representative called Sabariah last wed at Raffles Hospital foodcourt and signed all the documentation. It was a rush lunch hour for me though. I didn't manage to settle my lunch within that hour. Had to rush to Delifrance to grab the tuna sandwich.

Got my cadi 4-in-a thermometer from the expo bb fair and the comfort pillow from the kidzloft warehouse sale(thanks jo). The comfort pillow is pretty useful as it helps me sleep better, cos really have a hard time falling asleep these days as tum tum grows bigger.

My water retention is really bad now. Bad swelling of the feet. Worse than ever. I find i could hardly walk sometimes too. My feet looks exactly like pig throttles.

So sian....just counting down to my ML only. 8 more working days and i'm off to a 3months straight ML. Wonder when is the day ah boy will pop?