重男轻女...is gender really so important to the older generation?

If there is one thing that piss me off, its this.

I am just looking for an avenue to vent on.

I am the one bearing the child, so whatever gender i want, so be it. Even i can't decide so what makes U think and insist it is a BOY when my mil has told u otherwise? My mil based it on the Lunar Calender. What facts have u got to base it on? Your own thinking i suppose?

SHEESH. Just don't keep insisting it is a boy OK?

And don't (in front of me for goodness sake) keeps repeating things to kyan such as..."this is for 弟弟 in the future....弟弟 this 弟弟 that" when all of us have corrected him and questioned him umpteen times. He just won't listen. The thing repeats itself....again...again...and again. My ears have succumbed to this comment time and again.

So now, i'm 101% hoping my bb is a girl so he will shut his mouth off.

To him, one kyan (and one boy) isn't enough. Now he wants another boy whereas the rest of us want a girl. Wow greedy isn't it.

To me, boy or girl doesn't matter as long as he's healthy. I know i am guilty that i am bearing the hope this is a girl so he won't be happy, so i don't have to hear his comment any more and see the smile on his face. Even if this is a boy, i'm sure hoping that he won't adopt such thinking as his paternal grandpa in the future.

Please give me the energy to go on....

Boy just know how to pronounce and recognises "F" two days ago. He will go "AFP" by pursing his lips at the end. Super cute.

And he's learning his grandma by saying AIYA! whenever his grandma saw him pouring all his toys from the cart (by turning the cart upside down....so u see how strong this lil boy is). His own version of AIYA becomes "AILA" and "AHLA". Now he sees a mess of the toys on the floor he will go AHLA himself, when it is his own doing. Don't know want to laugh or cry.

On a side note, been feeling the cramps and spotting every now and then. Each day passed feeling the baby's heartbeat in my tum tum is just like a blessing to me. Days are so hard to get by now. I can recall the similar times when kyan was in my tum tum. Now that he is physically standing in front of me and i see him smile or laugh and his adorable movements/speech, it serves as a motivation for me to hold on, just for him to have a lil baby brother or sister to play with, and to imagine that i have yet another darling to hold on in another 9months time. Seriously, i fear that this day may not come, i fear the day i try and feel my baby's heartbeat only to find that there is none. I am so weak and fearful.

Now joo's accident makes me feel even worse, that pregnancy can ever be so vulnerable. Why is it that we can't be blessed with smooth and successful pregnancies? I hate to think of all these. I remember how frightful it was when i was carrying kyan. Each day, being a question of hope....each day, i just count and count till the day when my pregnancy will be diagnosed as stable. Each day....and yes now i'm facing it again with a heavy and fearful heart. Bless me.

I know i can always try again if i fail. But i really cannot afford to go through another round of MS all over again, now that i have started it. Each day, being a loss of appetite, a feeling of throwing up, cramps, vomitting, giddiness. For a moment i just feel like breaking down. Please give me the energy to go on....Please.

Duck Duck and Pa Pa?

Lil one is growing up each day...

Presently at 15months, little darling has achieved great milestones.

He is very adept in walking now...everywhere, to the extent of running. His vocabulary is expanding, as he knows things such as bus, ball, duck, sweetcorn, pear, apple, lorry, fire engine, tiger, alphabets like A, B, C...he also knows how to display the hand action, "no more"...like when we ask him, "where's daddy?" and daddy is not around, he will use his hand and signalled, "no more"..

He pronounces a few words. The most prominent one (and the one which he loves pronouncing) is "BUS". HAHA. He'll go "BA BA" and for duck, he will pronounce it as "DUCK DUCK" super accurately now! Everytime he sees the bus he will definitely go "BA BA!!!!" in an extremely loud manner, even when we are outside. When we ask him, "any bus kyan?" he goes to the window and looks out of it for the bus which may travel along the stretch of road. Sometimes everything he sees also is a bus to him. LOL. He will also pronounce ball as "BA". I guess his pronounciation is still not as right for this yet.

Now he always calls PAPA and looks for PAPA, no more MAMA le =( does he sense a #2 coming? I feel that he is quite distant from me now, as i cannot carry him, cannot take care of him and cannot play with him for long. Its really tiring.

I guess its a good and bad thing. Now that he's closer to papa, his bonding with papa is stronger too, i thank for that.

This lil guy, though clever, is starting to throw really bad tantrums. Everytime he wants something and we took it from him or disallow him to do it, he will cry and start beating and throwing tantrums. Sigh. I feel that it is really hard to teach little ones as they grow up.

GUG lesson

We brought Kyan to Growing Up Gifted (GUG) for a trial lesson last Sat, but unfortunately it didn't turn out well....

Kyan was the only baby who was on trial...so it seems that all the other babies knew one another except him. This boy hated to lose his freedom in crawling and went about his crawling business (in between ppl) when the teacher was teaching =.=''' He was screaming, flinging his arms and throwing a big tantrum when i refused to let him crawl, and was beating me too.... =____=''' I was in fact struggling with him throughout the whole lesson cos he wanted to move about but i had to tie him to our place. He was also making a fuss when i refused to give him the toys that the teacher had put away.

So all in all, i didn't enjoy the lesson, and so did kun. He did first half and i did the second half. In fact it wasn't even half i guess, we left halfway through the lesson to save us from more embarassment.

So the $50 was wasted. Sigh.

The teacher also didn't seem enthusiastic in wanting to teach either. According to kun, she actually threw the toys to the kids like a person spreading sand across the sea.

So we did not sign up for the scheduled lessons in the end.
Abit disappointed as i expect Kyan to take well to the lesson and totally liking it....oh well...

Something to cheer about though. Kyan has learned to walk many steps now! I was so excited when i witness the scene. Still remember he did his handsfree 3-walk during the housewarming but this time round it is actually a great improvement.

Nowadays, however he decided to take his head out on a temper. He likes to hit himself on the head?! Silly boy!! Wonder where he learn this from? He will keep hitting his head till we had to tie his hands up and said, "No, Kyan u cannot beat your head!" but he will still continue to beat.

He also loves to beat kun and me while he throws a tantrum when we are carrying him! *faintz*

Worried about this aspect of his character. I definitely have to come up with a method of telling him all these is incorrect. He cannot beat his own head nor can he beat his parents.

*double sweat*

This hot lil chilli padi...

This is Kyan's first successful attempt in pushing his toy wagon...alone =)

Toy Wagon was bought by his mama aka his maternal grandma.

I know that Kyan actually knows how to walk handsfree but has no confidence to do so....usually he will still wan to hold on to things for better support.

Anyway this naughty boy is really super naughty already. Not the normal kind of naughty. Its SUPER naughty and he became an easily flared up lil guy.
He actually fling his arms in a wild like manner and even beat beat his own mummy when he threw tantrums (when i was carrying him). There were a few times when my specs flew off my face cos he hit right at it! Can u realise how violent this lil guy can be???

I'm actually worried about this aspect of his character as he grows up. I am beginning to have a headache and wonder how i could discipline and teach him.

I am actually upset that he does not seem to want mummy/daddy. His world revolves around his grandma. I know that grandma deserves the credit and attention he showered upon her since she takes care of him so well, but mummy just can't help feeling sad about it.

Mummy can't pacify him. So long as he turns into the arms of his grandma, his cries stopped immediately....yes its IMMEDIATELY. Why can't the same happen when mummy is carrying him?

Mummy feels hurt....but what can she do? At least she's thankful that Kyan is not close to a maid afterall.

Housewarming Party at Humble Little House (Part 2)

Part 2 came a tad late i would say.

But its better late than never. Haaa....

Relatives came over in the evening. About 30 over pax. Received mostly ang baos and vouchers from them. My youngest aunt was so nice to give kyan a disney polo-T. Thanks to all of U!! My aunts/uncles and cousins never failed to cheer me up and support me even till today =)

En En came too! She's a big grown up gal now =) v adorable lil gal =D


Are U looking at me???


HAHA I'm so Happie....Happy....Happie...


Now U see me.....and later U don't...kuakua....


Photo taken with Mamee....


Deep in .....thoughts............


Enen Jie Jie....let me help U ok?

Surprisingly, Kyan was still quite ok that day. He was practically ok with everyone carrying him!

Here's a BIG thanks for all the housewarming pressies!! **Sorry if i left anyone out. I hope i did not!! *cross fingers*

To the 3 aunties who are like godma-s to kyan - Aunt Jo, Dea & Bin + their spouses eric/skye/shawn - thanks for the bike and oshkosh shoes for kyan. For the housewarming pressie...the photo frame was very much unexpected! So qiao its like we had telepathy, i also washed the same photos out that were taken by skye...keke...Cheers to our neverending friendship till the day we die =)
To Hilda and Ruth - I never meet u gals for like ages lor, soooo happy to see u both! And u both really did make an effort to come. I'm very touched really =) Felt so bad i didn't spend much quality time with u all. Hilda, thanks for the lovely hamper for us and kyan =) Gladys too, even though u couldn't make it last min, thanks for the presents! Catch up soon! Luann can't make it too =(
To my wonderful colleagues aka friends - Lovely handmade housewarming card, Robinson gift card + Capital Mall Vouchers. Millie bought two tupperwares for me! I wanted those! Thanks lady! Thanks Stacia and Liang Zheng for the blender! Its put in my mum's place now. Thanks Jeslyn for the WMF pot! WOW! Thanks to Kim for the plant! Hehe.
To my gaming frens, Ah Pork, Helen, Betty, Min Min, Sam, Lala - Thanks for the electric fan! V useful leh. We placed it on our living room bench cos that area no wind...so this comes in handy!!
To Jean and Sandy - Love u babes!!! Thanks for the set of expensive corningware!! Hey meet up more often leh
To my poly frens, Derix, Jocelyn, Stanley, Patricia, Steven - Thanks Joyce for the Loccitane room perfume! Thanks to Patricia for the electric photo frame!
To Derrick, Jimmy - U two guys i have not seen for ages too! So happy to see u both came. And Eena, u did make a trip down as promised! *Hugx*
To Vivi, Shirleen, Kate - Thanks for the Aussino vouchers!! Hey karaoke session next? Missed Maureen and Serene, both couldn't make it =(
To Karen, Jenner, Kee Peng, Ronnie - Thanks for dropping by! Karen's birthday celebration at her place on 29May!
Sharon, Siew Kim, Bee Ting, Siow Yen - Congrats to Siow Yen! And hope to meet up with u gals over dinner v soon!
Ivy, Stanley - So happy to still be keeping in touch with them, our honeymoon frens =) Thanks for the Robinson gift card.

Ok covered mostly abt everybody. I really hope i never miss anyone out!
I think most of them won't see this list la, cos i didn't tell many ppl abt this blog. But i still wanna post to keep these in memory =)

And how could i forgot the tons of ang baos, gift cards and vouchers i receive??? Thanks all!! I think i have at least 5 Robinson cards and gift vouchers now...LOL.

and FINALLY...

HAPPY MOTHERS DAY TO ALL THE MUMMIES OUT THERE IN THIS WORLD, ESPECIALLY TO MY OWN MUM!!
HAPPY 32nd BIRTHDAY TO THE SPECIAL MAN IN MY LIFE =)

Housewarming Party at Humble Little House (Part 1)

My invitation message on facebook...
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Hey Guys!

The three lil masters of the house would like to invite all of u to come celebrate the wonderful occasion and birth of our humble new home.

For this "open house" housewarming celebration, there will be food, drinks and company that u will enjoy...

Date: Sat, 1st May (Labour Day)
Address: Blk 1A, Cantonment Road, #31-11, S(085101)
Time: 12pm to 3pm (Friends/Colleagues)
5.30pm onwards (Relatives)
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Nowadays we are so closely "webbed" that by touch of simple buttons and fingers exercise, i manage to get my invitation contacts under one roof, all thanks to facebook. However coordination wasn't as easy as invitation. I had to sms reminders to those peeps who didn't reply me coming near the deadline.

Many thanks to all my friends and relatives who turned up that day. In fact turn up rate wasn't bad. Most actually gave me face and came on that day. Haha. Just a couple of them who couldn't turn up at the last minute.

Courtesy of photos to Eric! Didn't know he call himself..."小良"...keke...
Anyway these are wonderful pixs!


The SkyGarden on the 50th Floor

Don't the blue looks like a swimming pool?! (not though :P) Fabulous!

They have these metallic benches for rest& relax

And some pics which i stole from Eereena on fb :P Her bf took these pics on his pro cam too!

Taken from the 50th Floor



The other type of seats available on the skygarden. I call them "hard rock sofa seats"

This running track is taken on the 26th floor.


I felt so stupid. I actually didn't take photos with all my guests cos i was so bz, except this one photo which Eena's bf offered to take for us >.< SIGH!!!
I probably should have engage one photographer to do that. Silly of moi!!

Ok part two coming up next. The evening session with relatives.
Feeling really sleepy now. I shall head to bed now.
Ciaoz.

New thoughts, New home

It seems that coming online doesn't just revolve around blogging...there are tons of things to do...

Mummy has been rather addicted to online shopping its getting seriously dangerous =___='''

Having stayed at the new place for about two weeks+ already, aren't we all glad that kyan is adapting quite well to the new place, he is very much his usual self crawling round the house, screaming, shouting and going by his usual activities, albeit a smaller place than sengkang of course. But definitely much more cosier and easier, cos we have lesser housework to do! (since its a smaller house :P)

Lil boy just turned like 13months two days ago. Mummy doesn't keep track of the months as much as she had done so before boy had turned one year old. She is guilty of that. But she is sure boy is growing well and a big and cheerful boy now.

He definitely has his own set of tantrums and character that is seemingly more obvious each day =)

He has learned many words now. He knows what is the fan, the tiger, the light, the phone just to name a few. He knows who is Nai Nai, Ye Ye, Daddy, Mummy, Ma Ma (maternal grandma), Wai Gong, Jiu Jiu, Yee Yee.

And recently his favourite action is to keep shaking the head in a "YES" manner. Mummy is so scared he shakes it too hard that he will knock his head against the floor if he was in a crawling position.

His active climbing and standing means more accidents occuring every now and then. Yea, this fiesty boy sure is taking every chance to exercise his muscles to the fullest =) And oh, how i could forget that lil boy loves to throw EVERYTHING outta his playpen everytime? Daddy or one of us will usually told him firmly..."no u cannot do that, if u do that u are not getting the things back" but apparently this lil boy does not listen *insert a SIGH*

He loves to bite on his soft toys in the play pen. A few times when i shouted across to him..."KYAN! Cannot!" He will stand up in his playpen and hand the toy to me over the edge but if i don't take from him immediately after, he throws it outta the playpen (which usually happens). This boy will tip toe and sees the thrown out toy as his hands are held over the edge. He will then call out to me and points at the toy. Sometimes you don't know whether to laugh or cry.

Meals wise, his routine is now changed. Sometimes, he only has four meals instead of the usual five if he takes long nap in between. He will have Mamil Gold mixed with cereals and Pediasure as a standalone milk feed.

Just another two weeks time, there will be a housewarming where he will have plenty of jiejies, gorgors, didis and meimeis to play with that he could probably form a small mini playgroup.

That will be great =)

Happy Birthday, my grown up Boy!

I read that there are 3 sections of baby development. Taken from a reowned PD from his book, Positive Parenting - Raising Healthy Children from Birth to Three Years:

Physical (Motor)
Emotional (Social)
Mental (Intelligence)

Kyan has developed in three areas, but i would say he is still quite slow in learning how to chew. On the other hand, he is pretty adept in moving fast around the house and especially in his playpen, moving fast from one place to another.

Sometimes he can stand without support in his playpen for more than 10 seconds. He could walk and roll effortlessly in his playpen though he is still learning to walk on the hard floor.

He's crawling quite enthusiastically around the house despite the hard floor, thanks to my mum who let him did that. I thought it was a good move. He can even bend his body to see where the ball he threw has rolled into (underneath the gap below the drawers). There was once he bent too low till he hit his head against the floor and cried badly.

He has eight teeth in total, and i think there's another one coming out from behind. He loves to suck his thumb and fingers now it is a tedious task to stop him every now and then.

Changing his pampers is another headache. He hates to be changed and cries to get up. If you pin his hands down he will look and shout "HEY!" (in his baby language) at U..at the same time making noises and giving U the expression that, "HEY what are u doing?! Let go!" When u look at his expression, u don't know to laugh or to cry. Haha.

Its really a joy to see him grow up day by day, yet so ironic i wish he will still remain my precious baby forever, though i know one day it will be a fact that he will grow up and be on his way to boy and manhood. He is an individual who is learning to express his feelings, thoughts and emotions day by day.

As of 17Mar (yesterday), i hereby wish my precious boy a Happy First Birthday!!

Welcome to the next stage of your life. You have reach toddlerhood. Mummy wish for you to grow up a sensible, healthy and smart boy. You don't have to be perfect, but it is important you grow up to be a person with a true sense of well-being, being taught and preached the right virtues which i hope in future, will stay with you throughout your entire life.

One Year Advance Celebration

Seriously don't have the time to blog these days...SIGH.

The renovation has been completed on 12Mar. Now its just the packing, shifting and moving time. I guess this will just stretch all the way till end of Mar. Lucky we did not hold Kyan's birthday celebration at the new place, as of right now its a mess in there. We held it yesterday at Yong Chun Yuan Restaurant with just kyan's grandparents, aunts, uncle and of course Kun and me. It was a simple celebration. The usual heartwarming session of singing a birthday song, clapping with joy, blowing out the one and only candle, photo taking and cutting the cake. Kyan was rather well behaved and joyful since he was surrounded by the people he knew so well.

I thought the cake looked rather cute, which we ordered from Four Leaves at Sengkang, though i would definitely agree it will taste better if it was ranked on a sweet scale down.



In the morning, we let kyan choose from a plate of stuffs just for fun. Well the first thing he picked up was the red EGG! haha~which doesn't symbolise for anything. Next is the pen and his second choice was the scissors.



*Snap* Family Photos at the restaurant. Specially love the second pix.

Our poor boy was still running a flu despite it being nearly a week already =( Just look at how much weight he has lost. Mummy too was sick, her throat finally went hoarse today.






Thanks to the grandparents for the ang baos, and the gift toys from ah yi and koo ma...!

Lunar New Year + Valentine's Day

Chinese New Year happens to fall on Valentine's Day this year...and it is Kyan's first LNY celebration as well!

We had the reunion dinner at a coffeeshop at Tampines. I made a fuss in the midst of the dinner (as expected) and was crying and Daddy, Nai Nai and Mum had to take turns to carry me and walk about at the path outside, hoping i can fall asleep but unfortunately there wasn't much success.

Mummy bought this green (which happens to be my lucky color) polo-T for me from Fox Baby. Nai nai bought the jeans....Nice?

Daddy and Mummy wore the same shirt. Daddy bought the shirts!

I was out the whole day on the first day of CNY. Was pretty cranky during the feeding at Great Grandma's place and gotta have 4 persons entertaining and serving me (including the maid who had to perform tricks *faintz*). ..Surprisingly over at Grand aunt's place i still was laughing and playing with people. Sleep was interrupted and i had to sleep at broken intervals. It wasn't good being out the whole day at all.


Check out my new slant....

I love to put my fingers into my mouth...


I'm trying to act cool...Don't ever piss me off...

Family Photo of the Year

Jo emailed and asked me to submit this photo to motherhood contest for the LookALike contest....kyan with daddy of course!



Hope it wins!
No high hopes for it though...HA.

And here's another...where is Mister Kyan looking at?

Growing up each day...

Third tooth on the bottom has popped up. Cute ain't? When he smiles, these teeth become visibly obvious.

Little boy does have his favourite words now. He always calls mamamama....don't know whether he's calling out for me anot....and um um um...and ja ja ja ja ja....just yesterday i thought i heard him call daddy or papa! He is becoming smarter each day, with new stunts and tricks. He does like to "place" his little finger into my lips too. I think it is pretty cute. He's beginning to recognise things too. Yesterday his nai nai asked him where the banana is and he turned his head to the banana!

He is like a worm, can't sit still. Carrying him is like having a wrestle match with him. Takes a lot of energy u know.

He can stand up and walk forward now (though still got "crab-walking") but hey its a new style of walking already.

Meals wise, he just tried french beans and plums. Strawberries too. There were some red patches around his eyes which occurred within a few days of testing with the new foods and i wasn't sure it was due to the beans anot, or due to his rubbing of the eyes with his bolster. But no more allergic reactions were spotted the next day so i didn't see it as a source of concern.

Lil boy just recovered from flu and cough after we brought him to see Dr Anthony Chee (PD) at Hougang last Wed 27Jan (Clinic: Anthony Baby and Child Clinic). Charge wise is a bit steep (first time consultation is $70!). He is quite similiar to Dr Teoh in terms of thinking and also have many years of experience. I asked him whether it is ok if he doesn't meet the required daily milk intake (480ml to 500ml) a day since kyan still adopts a "I hate U" attitude towards milk. Sighz. Dr Anthony says that it is ok if he doesn't drink milk as long as he eats, as eating foods is more important than milk. It is just that us Asians have been generally influenced by Westerners thinking, as westerners believed that milk is still v important and a required level has to be reached daily. Since Dr Teoh and Dr Anthony are both experienced PDs, i am now more assured after hearing this sentence being emphasised a second time (milk is not so important as compared to solids) that I have begin to take a stride backwards towards his daily milk intake.

And his feet is v long! Now two new pairs of shoes can't be worn already, and he haven't even wore it once! Duhz! These two pairs were gifts from friends...one is adidas somemore! sighz...my mil says lil prince is small in size but has big feet! Thats why he's picking up walking fast...LOL

Total refusal of bottle feeding + Milk

Kyan's appetite for milk has plunged down to its worst again.

All of us are feeling hopeless. Its back to cries and struggles of refusing to be fed...even spoon feeding seems to be a really difficult task now. Milk is just one of the problem. He is not enthusiastic about solids either. Have to entertain and play with him in an attempt to try feeding him. One person is tough. It takes two or more to feed him. He totally refused bottle already.

I see another two bottom teeth forcing their way through the gums. These two must be the culprits. On saturday night, he woke up at a freaking one hour interval causing his mummy and daddy to do the same...

We are feeling helpless and stressed. Heeeelllllppp!

Mummy is suffering from eyebags...terrible ugly eyebags...sobz.

The typical scenes...

Chinese New Year (Tiger year) is approaching very soon too and this will be the first year Kyan undertakes a new job. He will help collect ang baos so his parents can at least recoup some losses from the massive economic crisis which always hits when CNY comes.

HAHA.

Being a big boy now, he is more interactive and displays his emotions more readily, albeit still naughty of course.

There are a couple of times when you don't know how amazing and smart kids can be.

Episode1

Little prince loves to throw things onto the floor, perhaps getting the kick of seeing people bending down on their fours to pick them up. He tests our limits to see how long this can go on, as he continues with this action. Finally we got put off and decide to keep the toy away. Little prince will look at us and realises its not fun anymore, and eventually he leaves the scene in his walker.

Episode2

Little prince throws a toy down while the we feed him food or milk as he is seated in his walker. After picking it up, he throws another toy down....and another....and another....sometimes to the point he starts sweeping everything off his walker top. So we decided not to put any toys in front of him. Little prince then sees a box containing the rest of the toys on the table next to him and decide to pull the whole box towards him. If we never "save" the box on time it will topple onto the floor.

Episode3
Fed him milk and food while he's in his walker. Eventually he jumps up and down his seat throwing a tantrum when he realises his patience waning.

Episode4

Little prince can say "Um", "M" and "Maaaaaaa" now. He loves to go to the kitchen and see the lighted stove fire. When he wants biscuits which are placed on the kitchen surface, he goes "erm""erm" in a forceful attempt to ask whoever is carrying him to go towards that direction. When he wants to go out, he knows where the keys are and want to take them himself or else want someone to take the keys for him.

Boy boy will turn one year old this year! Very fast he'll be walking, running and hopping around!

Daddy and Mummy are busy with the house renovation. Very soon i'll have a new house to stay and i have my own room! *Happy*

Celebrations to welcome 2010

Some postdated photos of the CNY celebration. Location: TCC at Plaza Sing. Date: 2Jan10. Just a humble meetup with my bffs, their other 1/2 (exception of shawn) and their kiddos..plus kyan's buddies, stephy and nigel.

This is actually one of my favourite pixs. Don't Nigel and Kyan look like they are in some serious discussion? Subject of negotiation: nigel's toy


My little prince is not giving up in asking nigel to lend him the toy...but nigel apparently is more willing to lend the toy to his gf instead :P


Kyan is finally thinking he won't ever borrow the toy and decides to stare at others instead, thinking..."what should i do now?"





Looking fierce *roar*


Look at all the nice food on the table~!






The next day was nai nai's birthday celebration at Chinatown "Yan Ge" restaurant...


Cousins lookalike?